Monday, August 21, 2006
feel lyk blogging so much...i noe my blog kinda sux...cos of irregular updates...my apologies...pretty bz recently...haha. 2dae. yea. juz felt lyk blogging so much...haha. in sch nw...in da canteen...haha...and sum ppl playing piano as backgd music...it makes my aches so much more =(
i'm pretty much upset in sch 2dae..cos i feel tt he is pretty much nonchalent ever since he knew wad was goin on..i didnt meant 4 it 2 b a joke...i meant..da truth. ok. i'm juz gonna spill out evything 2 evyone...haha. whoever tt reads..juz keep it a secret...wao...life sux...sum think tt fallin in luv is a waste of tme..as 4 mi..i tink it's sweet. sour. bitter. haha. salty? er. tink not. haha. those tt noes abt dis kept askin mi..jiahui...y him? of evyone? haha. gonna ans tt qn truthfully.
well...matters of the heart...it's pretty hard 2 explain...it is more often..a feeling..tt cums naturally...slipping slowly....haha..gradually...into ur life....till u begin 2 qn urself...y did i start taking notice of him? when did it started? then...u realise..tt sum1...has sum wad...walked into ur life...oh no..tt's how i'm feeling rite nw...i dunno wad 2 do...and i noe...onli he can help mi wiv dis....
i'm upset. bcos i tink tt he is nonchalent abt it ever since he knew evything on sat nite when we tok till 3am in da morning...it takes courage 2 confess...and it's especially so since i'm a gal...haha. in fact...i tink i m brave. at least...braver than other gals of my age..but then again..tt poses as another prob...i feel tt i m not a person tt is able 2 supress my feelings 4 long...i need 2 sae it out...but...who do i pour my sorrows 2? i dun wanna bug my clique abt him no longer...they r so tired 2 hear mi tok abt him over and over again...i'm sorry gals...i didnt mean it...but i feel suffocated when i dun sae it out...it's lyk..sigh~
so mani things hav happened lately...my family...my frens..haha..and nw..dis is happening. promos r cumin man...but i cant seem 2 conc evytme i tell myself tt i shd ..=((( ppl sae i appear weak in da outside..haha. tt's true. i dun deny. haha. apparently..i tink i'm weaker in da inside....i need company...i need comfort...i need sum1...sum1 out dere tt is able 2 motivate mi...especially so after performing so badly in da jct...i'm losing myself...my confidence...my evything....if it's not bcos of da clique..i tink...i wld hav dropped out from tj..i mean it. i really. need help.
but when? will evy1 really understand wad i'm goin thru? lionel..if u're reading dis...tell mi wad 2 do...hais. even ppl lyk leslie. haha. da nicest beng i've ever known..was mugging..alone...at da audi block..haha. speakin of him...haha. funny. ppl sae he looks lyk mouse? got meh? and they sae jun yang looks lyk chuan li =.= things r juz so screwed nwadaes...
haha. alrite...back 2 him..ppl. plz. dun tell him anithing tt i've blogged..haha. cos i noe he wldnt cum here 2 read...in any way or 2...LOL. i dunno la. no idea of wad i'm tinking of aniwae...i hope. he wun b so LAG. animore. cos..haha. yea. plz dun... ... ...
grey.... grey....grey....y didnt it rain 2dae...it shd hav..
deardiary.
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