Saturday, April 28, 2007

i just felt like blogging.
i'm gg out lata. and i'll probably be limping.
ugh. bdaes!!! 3 pple having their bdaes nx wk. i counted. 11 pple bdaes' are in may.
excluding mine. BAH BAH BAH. i'm terribly broke )):
gg flea mkt 2mr with agnes. doubly broke. broke. broke.

aye.
do you ever get the feeling that you're really stupid sometimes?
you do things you REPEATEDLY reminded yourself not to and the moment you do it you go like "what is WRONG WITH ME?!"
really, stupidity has no limit.it's like.. infinity and beyond ya know?
the worst part is it isnt the first time.you do it again and again and again and again..
and then you come to a point where you cant really be bothered.
like now.as if making the same mistakes arent bad enough
you procrastinate.you freak yourself out. but you procrastinate.
it's like a vicious cycle.freakout. procrastinate. freakout again.
procrastinate. freak out somemore. procrastinate.
what you thought was rock bottom isnt rock bottom
cause when you crashed, you realise
beneath the what-you-thought-was-rock-bottom
had another bottomless pit beneath it.
and you fall and fall and fall, first you try to fight by scraping the sides.
then you decide, might as let go completely. and you do.
i'm a 笨蛋，lio can u dun be another 笨蛋？
that's the best i can do and i aint wanna hurt u further and further and more...
bcos i know how much it feels just to be stuck in dis same predicament ever again.
i dun want you to get hurt.
we'll be just fine.
remaining status quo.
that's my final decision. i'm sry...
you knew it all along..cmon.
it's a point where u noe it's not possible simply bcos we are too close and we know
each other inside out?
i know u know it.
i'm freaked out enough by what there has just past..
i dun wish to freak out again...
if not, i'd probably lose my slightest strength..to stand up..
please..
will you let me gain my strength?

having said that.
i've made up my mind to cherish everyone.
i dun wish for anyone to get hurt bcos of me..
i'd rather i get hurt...not you pple..
here's a story to share..
it's about frenship..



One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students
in the room on two sheets of paper,
leaving a space between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about
each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment,
and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student
on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had
said about that individual.On Monday she gave each student his or her list.
Before long, the entire class was smiling."Really?" she heard whispers.
"I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and,
"I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.
She never knew if they discussed them after class with their parents,
but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose.
The students were happy with themselves and one another.
That group of students moved on. Several years later,
one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student.She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before.
He looked so handsome, so mature. The church was packed with his friends.
One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin.
The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her.
"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes."

Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."After the funeral,
most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon.
Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
"We want to show you something," his father said,
taking a wallet out of his pocket. "They found this on Mark when he was killed.
We thought you might recognize it."Opening the billfold,
he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that
had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times.
The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones
on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates
had said about him."Thank you so much for doing that,"
Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it."

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around.
Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list.
It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."Chuck's wife said,
"Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.""I have mine too,"
Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."Then Vicki, another classmate,
reached into her purse and showed her frazzled list to the group.
"I carry this with me at all times, " Vicki said and without batting
an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists."
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried.
She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget
that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.
i'd rather get hurt than losing anyone of you out dere. you guys are really
special and important. my gift from above.
pig, that includes you. i mean it, from the bottom of my heart ((:
i'm sry for being harsh.
hope we'll still be great friends.
it's a frenship i cherish and dun wanna lose..even after so much.

to everyone out dere...remember to listen to this song!
记得爱。((:
cos after so much...i'd still remember to love..everyone of you out dere...

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有说不出的心碎　
Oh yeah
我还爱着一个人　
但愿回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退　
Oh～记得爱　
所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开伸出手　
继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱 是我给过的答案就不再　
考虑应该不应该一滴泪　
落进无边无际的大海至少
我们都活得没有遗憾
只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

Friday, April 27, 2007

so many things have happened lately...

i'd say that none of it is happy..

happiness seems to be so far away from me...

maybe it's too afraid to come close to me..

bcos..

i am unhappy..

i dun seem to be smiling..

i just realised it when sum1 mentioned it to me ydae..

my chapter has closed..

and i dont wish to fall into it anymore again..it's very painful for me..till now..it is.

i have a simple bdae wish..

i once had a bdae..celebrated on the road (Deadend)

where the group of us merely sat down and tok...

and once had a bdae celebrated flying kite at marina...

this year...

i've been to this place many many times..

and i still wish to celebrate it there..

the breeze...the night..it's nice...to have my 18th bdae celebrated there...

where i wld find peacefulness...that i need..that strength to move on..

to be myself again..

我可以任性一点吗？

现在的我好难过啊。。。

不过，我选择不放弃自己。。

加油了，佳蕙！

你会找到快乐的小天使的! ((:

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I didnt noe tt u wear a facade all along.
i cant believe it till i heard abt it.
to tink tt u said it in a jokingly manner to sum1 else abt wad tt means so much more to me.
u just wanna get over and done with it in an irresponsible manner and shake it off ur mind
without considering the no. of times u have hurt me so much.
bcos u onli care abt getting it done and nth else apart from it. tt includes ignoring completely abt how i feel. mind you, i'm a girl. i may seem to be strong and tell u tt i'm fine. fact is, how am i supposed to be fine when so many things have happened and you have hurt me so much???
all along, u took the amt of effort i've put in for granted and you've never cherished it.
for the past 8 mths plus, i've been living in misery each day.
but i noe i've gotta let go after i've heard abt tt conversation.
bcos i'm beginning to doubt abt ur personality and character. whether or not the guy i liked for so long is worthy of my love or not.
i wun budge anymore. i wun shun you anymore. i've decided to face up with the truth instead of having to deceive myself further.
right from the moment that the ring is returned. you said i cld return it to you when i've made up my mind.
once and for all,
it's completely over.
i can no longer tell myself, "jiahui, no matter wad happens, no matter how mean he is to you, hold on, bcos he means so much more to you."
no longer.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

sorry peeps. changed backgrd music again. cant help it yeah. neyo's new song's so omg. haha. must listen! xD

aye. i didnt go to sch today. i'm just sian. i feel uncomfortable being in sch.
aint feel lyk gg to sch. at least for now. yeap.
a pity tt i cant do anything to it.

casting tt aside, the onli thing tt's gonna keep me gg is : I passed my maths and chem test! wahahhaah! cos i thot. yeap. it was so gonna b mm..goner kinda thing. haha! 80% of the cohort failed chem u see. haha. yea. happy. ((:
i'm gonna continue working hard.
aye. but...c lit. hais. worrying.

what do i really want? what must i do to make myself feel better?
i cant avoid this issue man.
the more i'm avoiding, the more it haunts me.
gawd. i'll pray it's gonna be over soon.
it sucks when you cant conc bcos of dis.
many things undone..
many songs unwritten. damn.
when will my miracle happen?
she who is silent is forgotten;
she who does not advance falls back;
she who stops is overwhelmed;
out distanced, crushed;
she who ceases to grow becomes smaller;
she who leaves off, gives up;
the condition of standing still is the beginning of the end
.... ...
i noe..but how to do it???
i'd rather not talk to you till i noe what to do.

Monday, April 23, 2007

好辛苦，很难受。
我想我再也没有勇气支持下去。。
散。

Sunday, April 22, 2007

TAKE A GUN. POINT AT ME. AND SHOOT.

GRRRRRRR! THERE WERE METEOR SHOWERS YDAE!!! Y DIDNT I GO AND SEE???
OKAY. I'M SUCH A DUMB ASS.
GRRRRRRRRRRRR. METEOR SHOWERS LEH! SO PRETTY!!!


The next meteor shower is the Lyrids on April 22.
Name
Date of Peak
Moon Phase
Quadrantids
January 4
Full Moon
Lyrids
April 22
Evening crescent
Eta Aquarids
May 6
Morning gibbous
Delta Aquarids
July 28
Full Moon
Perseids
August 13
New Moon
Orionids
October 21
Evening gibbous
Leonids
November 18
Evening gibbous
Geminids
December 14
Evening crescent



grrr. pek chek. aye. pek chek.
it seems to be.....i dunno how.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

...and i still feel not quite right.

Friday, April 20, 2007

I'm interested in this 'Poetry for the unclaimed soul'. Hope i'll get it soon enuff.

Damn. Emo.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Hey guys! finally got the song on my blog ((:
so if u lyk emo songs just as i do and avril lavigne's style of singing and the arrangement,
you're gonna fall in love with dis song for the 1st time listening to it just lyk i do! ((:



"When You're Gone"
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

blessed with the love from an angel ((:



p.s. can any nice fellow that has the song when you're gone by avril lavigne (mp3 though) send me the song pls??? it's darn nice but i cant get the mp3 version ):

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Monday, April 16, 2007

life is fraught with so much difficulties.

i'm so sick and tired of evything.

thats so unbecoming of me.

sigh`.

i just wanna b tt gingerman out there and have a nice companion by my side.
)):
if only things were that easy.

hais.

p.s. quit reading my blog if you dislike my contents. get this right. this is my blog. stop those nonsense pls. i jus dun wanna loathe anyone or anybody. i'm beginning to drift away at this rate if this continues. not like they have never done it before. whatever the case, i'll just let it past but i aint know how much longer can i take this. damn. save me.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Smiling is infectious,
you catch it like the flu,
When someone smiled at me today,
I started smiling too.
I passed around the corner
and someone saw my grin
When he smiled I realized
I'd passed it on to him .
I thought about that smile
then I realized its worth,
A single smile,
just like mine
could travel round the earth.
So, if you feel a smile begin,
don't leave it undetected
Let's start an epidemic quick,
and get the world infected!










SMILE! =PpPp

Things do go wrong as they sometimes will...When the road u're trudging seems all uphill....no urge to smile, but to sigh... rest if you must, but do not quit ((: je crois que tu peux le faire! Smile always! =P

Monday, April 09, 2007

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Hi world.

Had a mugging session at Pp ydae. saw yicheng. bt tts not the pt. the pt is, i fell in love with this heart shaped wooden musical box at 'in a box'! it's darn lovely! i swear it is! hahah! for pple who really noes me well, they are aware of my love for musical boxes cos as far as i cld remb, the very 1st bdae gift i had received from my daddy was a musical box! hahaahhha. i'm really hoping to receive 1 for my bdae! (: (hints* so badly haha)

anyway, just to side track a lil, was reading ______'s blog...
he's super lame with his super funny language. ahhaha. anyway, just an extract from his blog.....

"This few days keep on not feeling well, must be kenna the Fit virus from Ah Fit. I so strong also will get sick ar. Then yesterday went to see ___ and ___ the campus superstar auditions round 2. Actually hope __ will get in one but never, must be never pray to ___ then no luck. Then ___ is confirm get in one lar that bastard, first round audition sing the song haven even sing until chorus the judge stop him then Ding-Dong Ding-Dong already ar. Not like ___, is get Teh then out already. At night then went to Teo Heng KTV with _____. Wah, we finally not so old fashioned already ar, last time see them pick the songs all is Zhang Xue You, Andy Lau, then sometimes will Wu Bai And even worse got Dao Lang one. Now at least more of Wang Li Hong, Tank those singers. And the highlight of the whole night is ____. He super siao ar, he from last year learning Thai already, then when going to sing finish already he keep on searching for Thai songs sing. Starting still thought he being stupid, in the end when the song come out he really can sing ar, somemore sing nicer than he sing chinese songs. Everyone was like super stun and laughing like dunno wat. Then somemore he sing super like the original singer, like no difference liddat. The song is Sa-Bai Sa-Bai by Bird Thong Chai. Next time got the video already post it here."

darn funny rite? muahahhaahs. (:
oh ya. i wanna thank giraffe too. check dis out.

"to all my friends who are feeling unhappy out there, try to look at the bright side of life. life is just like a maths question. there's no problem that can't be solved. it all depends on how you view the situation.
like what mr tan (sec4 emaths teacher) has said during PCCG, "you can choose whether to wake up feeling happy or dejected in the morning, and this decision can make a great difference to your life."
try to treasure and show more concern towards the people around you or you'll feel sorry and live in agony after you've lose them. that will be too late to salvage the relationship then. i'm not at all a nice person.
i have my weaknesses (a lot in fact) but this is the simple rule that i'll try to stick to in life.the conclusion for this boring post is simple. everyone must smile more!
have a positive attitude towards life. for there are always people who are less fortunate than all of us. there's no reason for us to frown for every obstacle that we'd faced in life right? it's pointless harping over the same old problem. so get over it and move on. or let nature take its own course.

"Get real. Nobody can sort life's problems by themselves. If we are not doing so well on our own, find understanding, outside support."

thanks giraffe! =D

and thanks to our holy saint beast for putting dis sun thingie on her blog to cheer me up (:
and thanks daClique!

and thanks to yiliang too. dun worry too much abt ur comp and march block la. will be fine (:

and thanks kee. muahhaahha. wasted so much tme and effort on me =X

lionel. yeah. i dunno wad to say. but yeah. BIG THANKS! =PpPp




....and i'm still tinkin of my LOVELY MUSICAL BOX!!!!!!! ): i wan it so badly!

.Thank you.

..:. je serai toujours autour de toi et tu ne pleuras jamais ..::

.Singer.

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DaCliQue

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*a sweet-looking musical box =D
*an engraved ring xD

.She Listens.

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When You're Gone- Avril Lavigne
What Hurts The Most- Rascal Flatts
Lips Of An Angel- Hinder
Be Without You- Mary J. Blige
Inconsolable- BSB
Over you- Chris Daughtry
One More Moment- Ronin
Why Don't You Kiss Her- Jesse McCartney
Here Without You- 3 Doors Down
That's When I Love You- Aslyn
Awake- Secondhand Serenade
It's Not Over- Secondhand Serenade
Only One- Yellowcard



Emo, acoustic, hard punk, rock, indie ((:

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