SadNeSs iN mY eyEs

2007-12-30T16:16:00.001+08:00

i've moved.

2007-11-27T02:54:00.000+08:00

Hi world! i'm finally back to blog!
It's 2.54am now. HAHA. just hung up the phone.
i'm bored.

Yeap. My A's are just over. Dont ask me how was it.
Anyway, i've found a job for myself. i'm working 4 singtel yeap.
uh huh. thanks to nathan. i feel so bad actually. cos i kept bothering him.
kept introducing pple to him. so sry if u dun get commission for it. hahas.

hmm. anyway, what he said was really right.
i was wondering what i would do if i cant get into the 3 unis?
he said tt actually sim is fine too. ultimately, it's the course and the
degree tt matters! i mean, seriously, i wldnt wanna get into any engineering
course that i'm not interested in at all even if i've managed to get into the 3.
oh well. hmm.

so yeah. rubayn, if you're reading this. haha. okay.
i mean, yar. can meet up already la.
seriously owe you a BIG meal. hehe. dun worry, i didnt forget! (:

as i'm blogging. i'm like listening to this oldie called- sometimes when we touch.
haha. familiar rite? it's by rod steward. my dad always plays it in the car. hmm. anyway, anavil left for thailand. he's a sweet mortal of mine. hmm, pretty good at handicraft (guys gd at it...tsk. rare). hmm i wished him all the best last week and he replied too. okay la. have to show a lil' concern ma. hais. yeah. so another fren left for thailand. my bestie, kinara left for thailand about 4 yrs ago as well. why why why? our miss xiaoxian is leaving too to study in china in march. aww ):

i'm rotting already. why am i only starting work on the 10th dec? oops. my SAT is dis sat. and i havent done anything for it. hohoho. gd luck to me! oh the other day i was reading my driving book. along the way home, i was asking my parents about some scenarios u will definitely face when you're driving. so yeah. both of them held completely diff views on the SAME scenario i was asking. so, who am i suppose to listen to? LOL. sumtmes, it aint too gd a situation if both your parents drive though.

was catching up with xav the other day. it's no longer the xxxx i'm feeling. it's more like an yi han to me. afterall, it's a good thing cos i feel so carefree now! *claps* hey man, gd luck for your ns! =D

oh no, really aint feeling sleepy at all. it's 322am. haha.
anyway, i saw poh jin hui at recruit express today! he was wearing a suit for the interview. wow, and i accompanied elaine(yiliang aka cecilia's rumoured girlfren) there. omg, SUIT leh. i cldnt exactly recognise him until i was wondering why he kept staring at me.hahaha. so formal! mind you, the informal me, was wearing a miniskirt z.Z BIG contrast. tsk. anyway, tts me mah! who cares. haha.

oh and yar. i was reading ah mok's blog jus now. check dis out.

convo 1:

me: you know i dunno why, he kinda 'electrocuted' me leh. super shocked la.
mok: orh yeah (nodding while tv-ing)
me: OH! ah mok you noe sth?
mok: huh. wad thing?
me: i used the wrong word! no wonder it sound funny!
mok: wad word? oh u mean 'electocuted'? haha. tt means it's lyk the cartoon type rite? after tt will see your skeleton kind.
me: sorry. i meant 'electrified' z.Z HAHA. you dumb lar. you didnt realise my mistake?

lol. wad a stupid convo.
anyway, i've got another 1 here. this proves tt ah mok is blurrer than me k!

mok: eh, lets go fly cake!
me: HUH? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. i tink i noe wad u meant.
mok: ignoring me. continued to tok about flying cake.
me: excuse me, you said fly cake!
mok: oh, i meant fly KITE! ahahhahaha!

another bimbo. anyway, really love talking to her. hehe!
aww~i bought 3 tops today. i'm wearing it to work you see. haha. okay. i love it. especially the purple one. haha. my fav colour =D how's mr cecilia doing in taiwan now? LOL. TAN YI LIANG. i wan present =D KEKE.

mok is coming for a stayover on wed. i'm so excited!! aye. so sorry. the dancing set is at aljunied. i only brought back the PS. paiseh. oh guys, there's dis bak kut teh shop near my hse and dis roti prata shop as well tts opens for 24 hrs daily without fail. OMG. i just realised it ydae. super dumb. (only realised it 4 months after moving in) ah mok. we shall have bak kut teh for supper! haha. sinful leh. tsk tsk.

anyway, here are some photos of me and turtle.

aye. okay. i look super ugly inside.

guys, ever heard of secondhand serenade? omg. john presley rawks! i love every single song of his. cos it's the genre i like best! haha. it's kinda rock, indie, acoustic, hard punk kinda music. anyway, gotta order online for his cds. cos it's not available in sg. probably only in the states. he's really gr8 la! =D

okay. gotta end off here. x)
p.s. your knuckles action really reminds me of my past. hmm.

2007-10-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

couple of photos here and there...

was studying at nlb today.
saw wanding, ruo wei, wei chong, akimullah, li en, xinyi, wai kit, noriko today.
omg. so many pple are mugging. damn scary.
hmm. my mum's hospitalised. hope tt she'll be discharged soon.
i'm visiting her aft sch 2mr.
hope my aunt's well too. she just had a operation today. sian.
anyway, yl said he's gg to report on 9th jan. heard tt chew's in march. JJ's in april.
tts like so cool.
and i wonder why our class guys so cmi. dec leh.
haha. oh guys. work on ur pull ups! (: so sad. cannot enjoy life longer =X
a lvls' in 2wks. oh mama.
anyway, sth random.
it was raining heavily today. ah mok and i ran across the road. haha. and one of my slippers slipped out of my foot in the middle of the road. so i gotta ran all the way back to the middle of the road to retrieve it. omg. my heart missed a beat. damn scary. i was so afraid that the green man wld stop blinking and turn red..
ok. omg. i so love liu ming feng!

2007-10-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

1000000000 million faces. dunno where i'm heading.
wished i hadnt knew all of these faces.
perhaps you wldnt even find me around after a levels.
oh wells.

2007-09-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

hi. i'm back to update.
life's not really tt fine anyway.
i'm jus feeling bz and stressed out.
and my relationships with my classmates are kinda screwed.
aint gonna name anyone though.
i know they read my blog for nuts.
it's strange to know tt certain pple just reads when you know tt they dislike ur style and everything. hais. cant i just be myself in my blog? why do i have to care abt wad others say? yes, it's selfish. point is, "it's my blog!"

just completed prelims.
i've given my best shot though i know it's still screwed.
oh well. sigh.
seems like i've regretted this path. yet, i'm at the final lap oredi.
there's nothing i can do but complete it well.
everything is just so screwed.
it's just, feeling eager to talk to some pple.
but,
everytime after i start engaging myself into it,
i'll feel tt some pple are just responding for the sake of responding.
and i'll end up saying ok, 'i gtg' but in actual fact, i'm still hanging out there.
come to a point, u'll feel lyk. aye. forget it.
probably just not interested to talk to you.
drop it.
head for the organ.
head for the sticks.
do everything else but not tink abt it no more.
a levels jiayou! it's gonna be over real soon.

现在的我，依然在找寻出口。。
.心痛当初相遇的心动.

2007-09-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

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2007-08-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day!

heh, even though it's over.

picture of my niece standing tall. haha.

picture of sebas. erm..performing stupid actions with di. comical.

rubayn misses me. haha.

picture of a happy cake!

family steamboat (:

chalet steamboat (compare & contrast) =X

2007-07-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

keep the faith.
' it doesnt means they arent there, they're just hidden behind the clouds. i'll see them once again. watching them shine. keep it there.

2007-07-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

i feel like shit.
i wanna graduate asap.
i wanna go abroad.
i'll just hope i'll vanish right after a's.
i might do it.
maybe.

i hate compelling myself to do stuff i dislike.
like now.
my life is just a total piece of shit.
and i see no reason why it's like this.
stop giving me trouble
cos i'm already very troubled as it is.
leave me alone.
leave me out of this.
argh.
i'm just a pathetic piece of shit.

will i feel better if i hadnt knew all of you especially you?
oh well.
i guess so.
i'm living in misery.
and you, the other you.
it's impossible my dear.
you'd lead a better life w/o me.
cos i'm a pathetic piece of shit.

and finally,
i dun feel like i belong here or there or anywhere.
pretenders. shoo.
stay as far away from me as possible.
and if isolation works,
i'll give it a shot.

and i would pray for her.

2007-06-17T20:03:00.000+08:00

Perplexed.

what can i say about things in life? frenship?

i find it particularly challenging to maintain.

like now.

why is it that i feel as if we are simply hi-bye friends?

i'm so sick of that feeling.

________is the only person from my _______ that i really keep in

contact with these days.

and i dun see why some just dao off.

does it means that things are gg to fall apart and we only keep in contact in sch?

goner.

perhaps, letting go would make a better choice.

conflicts...blabla..

i'm so sick of it.

or rather...sick of _____politics...especially when it goes internally among _______

been hanging out lately with the guys.

at least, i wldnt feel burdened as it is.

perhaps..there shdnt be any _______ in the first place.

cos.

what i felt was the most impt proved to be nth particularly impt afterall.

if we are unable to reach a consesus..to value things we judge...

i'd rather...

opt out.

oh well. matters aside.

i guess apart from lt, lio, gw, mok.. they oso like the beach (:

yet, some pple dont. aye. dunno la. just being melancholic. or.. whatever you call it lar.

2007-06-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

i see pigs.

not 1...

but 2...

and an ultra slpy pug..

oh no. i feel slpy too )): sry for not updating. been lethargic these days. yeap. another time alright.

2007-05-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

hey world. i'm back.

havent been bloggin for abt a month. time flies. it's holis rite now.
aint even enjoyin much.
i feel stressed up instead.
been trying to put those pieces back in place.
har.
that reminds me of james morrison's the pieces dont fit anymore.
lame.
i'm tired.
yet kinda hysterical lately.
so super duper tired.
time's running out.
argh.

went biking today after "grilling out" session with xian 2dae.
bike all the way from del sol to parkway = far.
saw lihong and i was lookin quite lyk a siao char bo= paiseh.
argh.
quite fun afterall.
so many vehicles on the road.
then bike across was kinda dangerous.
but cool.
hahas.
(:

sun.
great sg sale.
spent 300 plus with my sis.
haha.
lingerie ex la.
bought a blue bikini.
nice.
kit min was the sales man.
funny.
dunno y he works there.
after tt went xian hse.
was suppose to tan.
but the sun was gone.
=.=
annoying.
went up
studied a lil.
then dad picked us up
headed for dinner.
woah.
and tt reminded me of my bro.
who is as clumsy as me.
jus 2 wks ago..
tt fellow..poured the whole glass of coke on me.
and a restaurant.
well done Z.z
sian.

i'm bloggin crap.
i'm slpy.
my hair is wet.
i cant slp.
damn.
ok.
shall update more.
out.

2007-05-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

i'm so lazy to blog. these are the photos for the past month...yeaps.
tts rite. my bdae month. saved it as draft.
just photos..
lil words..LoL. i'm lazy. (:

Thats the pretty tiramisu from xiao xian! (:

Ok. i look lyk i'm praying. (bai-bai) haha.

The 2 of us ((:

Hello! say hi to my fellow comrade! tts girl girl! it's my aunt's cHiwawa (:

HAHA. it refused to take photos with me. hmm. tt explains why my head is so damn big.

Hmm. that pretty cake w/o margarine is from dearest agnes who made it herself! hmm. and she forgot to add margarine. =X

hmm. that packet of biscuits is from lionel.

hahah. it's chao tah. but. u noe i appreciate it! thanks (:

DaClique celebrated my dae there at vivo..

all the yums yums..hahahas.

qi and i in the toilet.

HaHa. nice (:
we drank.

Me.

qi and I
and fen at the bottom.. Another cake in sch (:Hmm. To blow or not to blow? Or pose?

Uh huh. peace treaty huh?

Hmm. Pasir Ris beach.

Emma a LiL eMo ?

Ok. another cake from beloved marimo mok mo mo.

Hmm. thats 2 cakes!

Here's marimo.

That's us.

Marimo found dis artistic?

YIPEE! swing! oh craps. and i still tink i havent quite grown up.

Uh huh. how can i do w/o another cake from my family? =D

heheehhehehehehehe. pretty pretty strawberry leh (:

Special thanks to:

Agnes, for the DIY cake

Lionel, for the chaotah cookies! ahah! Alan, for the OMG dunno wad to buy but in the end still bought ferroro hahaha.

Marimo, elaine, yi liang for the ...mm. alot.
tts my all time fav dale (:
and only they know. muacks!

Verena for the lovely necklace (:
Marimo, yl and elain for the star necklace
the bracelet.
the earrings! hahaha!

Hmm. and miss indian for this nicely lovely wrapped up present!

the bag from the 11 ppl..daclique, xuan yun, sebas, xin an, di hui, darren, waikit, xiangting.
Touching lil stuff from xiao xian!
Kee (:
Qi (:

Indian (:

Got mirror inside. HAHA.
Hand made earrings..
Hand made necklace

Finally.....a video made by qi and fen! hmm i love it! (:

there's our class in it too! ((((::::

2007-04-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

I HEART WU LING TING!!! (((:

2007-04-28T12:52:00.000+08:00

i just felt like blogging.
i'm gg out lata. and i'll probably be limping.
ugh. bdaes!!! 3 pple having their bdaes nx wk. i counted. 11 pple bdaes' are in may.
excluding mine. BAH BAH BAH. i'm terribly broke )):
gg flea mkt 2mr with agnes. doubly broke. broke. broke.

aye.
do you ever get the feeling that you're really stupid sometimes?
you do things you REPEATEDLY reminded yourself not to and the moment you do it you go like "what is WRONG WITH ME?!"
really, stupidity has no limit.it's like.. infinity and beyond ya know?
the worst part is it isnt the first time.you do it again and again and again and again..
and then you come to a point where you cant really be bothered.
like now.as if making the same mistakes arent bad enough
you procrastinate.you freak yourself out. but you procrastinate.
it's like a vicious cycle.freakout. procrastinate. freakout again.
procrastinate. freak out somemore. procrastinate.
what you thought was rock bottom isnt rock bottom
cause when you crashed, you realise
beneath the what-you-thought-was-rock-bottom
had another bottomless pit beneath it.
and you fall and fall and fall, first you try to fight by scraping the sides.
then you decide, might as let go completely. and you do.
i'm a 笨蛋，lio can u dun be another 笨蛋？
that's the best i can do and i aint wanna hurt u further and further and more...
bcos i know how much it feels just to be stuck in dis same predicament ever again.
i dun want you to get hurt.
we'll be just fine.
remaining status quo.
that's my final decision. i'm sry...
you knew it all along..cmon.
it's a point where u noe it's not possible simply bcos we are too close and we know
each other inside out?
i know u know it.
i'm freaked out enough by what there has just past..
i dun wish to freak out again...
if not, i'd probably lose my slightest strength..to stand up..
please..
will you let me gain my strength?

having said that.
i've made up my mind to cherish everyone.
i dun wish for anyone to get hurt bcos of me..
i'd rather i get hurt...not you pple..
here's a story to share..
it's about frenship..

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students
in the room on two sheets of paper,
leaving a space between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about
each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment,
and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student
on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had
said about that individual.On Monday she gave each student his or her list.
Before long, the entire class was smiling."Really?" she heard whispers.
"I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and,
"I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.
She never knew if they discussed them after class with their parents,
but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose.
The students were happy with themselves and one another.
That group of students moved on. Several years later,
one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student.She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before.
He looked so handsome, so mature. The church was packed with his friends.
One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin.
The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her.
"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes."

Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."After the funeral,
most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon.
Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
"We want to show you something," his father said,
taking a wallet out of his pocket. "They found this on Mark when he was killed.
We thought you might recognize it."Opening the billfold,
he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that
had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times.
The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones
on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates
had said about him."Thank you so much for doing that,"
Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it."

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around.
Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list.
It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."Chuck's wife said,
"Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.""I have mine too,"
Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."Then Vicki, another classmate,
reached into her purse and showed her frazzled list to the group.
"I carry this with me at all times, " Vicki said and without batting
an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists."
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried.
She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget
that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.
i'd rather get hurt than losing anyone of you out dere. you guys are really
special and important. my gift from above.
pig, that includes you. i mean it, from the bottom of my heart ((:
i'm sry for being harsh.
hope we'll still be great friends.
it's a frenship i cherish and dun wanna lose..even after so much.

to everyone out dere...remember to listen to this song!
记得爱。((:
cos after so much...i'd still remember to love..everyone of you out dere...

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有说不出的心碎　
Oh yeah
我还爱着一个人　
但愿回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退　
Oh～记得爱　
所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开伸出手　
继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱是我给过的答案就不再　
考虑应该不应该一滴泪　
落进无边无际的大海至少
我们都活得没有遗憾
只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

2007-04-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

This is my foot. what a joke. acupuncture used to be my PW topic.

now..i really need acupuncture.

it's mm....VERY VERY VERY PAINFUL LA! )):

i've been thinking these days.

these melancholic days

those melancholic melodies.

it's almost may now.

i'm graduating real soon.

not being able to perform for promos

seemed to be still haunting me.

once bitten twice shy.

i cannot flop again.

but..

i'm still afraid.

it's still seems bleak and daunting...everything..and all..

i regretted not joining band..

not being able to do what i wanna do..

regretted not playing hard enuff.

regretted allowing myself to fall deeper and deeper into what seemed a bottomless pit..

regretted taking c lit..

regretted leaving mjc..

regretted not letting go earlier..not tt i've not tried hard enough though..

regretted annoying pple..when i noe i'm being spiteful..

regretted being nonchalent when i know i've hurt others..

regretted pretending i dont care 'attitude'..just tt i do care..i dun show..

regretted hurting you when the last person i'd wanna hurt is you...

see..i'm living my life with so many regrets...

but from now onwards...

i aint wanna do anything else that will make me regret anymore...

especially friendship..

each and everyone of you has captivated my heart so much that i'd find it hardest to let go when i graduate..

2 years seems so short to me...

and i wonder what kind of life will i lead aft i graduate....

i'd always remember those crazy stuff we did together...

nights we spent together mugging hard but always end up slping or playing kinda thing...

u guys are always irreplaceable in my heart.....

i'm blessed to have you guys with me especially when i'm down and out...

when i do not know who else to go for....

you guys are always there for me...

and i'm gonna miss those yong he trips....

watching fireworks...

camwhoring together even though very idiotic at times...

walking and buying durians trips...

playing in camps...

chit-chatting sessions....

taking pictures at the flagpole...esplanade rooftop....posing stupid actions...

remember there was this once when i'm forced to make a 'S' shape for lisi's bdae...

apparently...the most difficult alphabet. yet done with so much fun...

slpovers...chirstmas parties....

even at times when we do quarrel...conflicts....

i aint wanna lose anyone of you out there.......

haha. dun be too touch cos i've just blogged about things i suppose all of us should be thinking of...

i'm so gonna miss all of you...

since none of us have enough courage to say it out...

what i intend to say is that....

leck..no matter what problems you encounter...

we will always be there for you...

all of us realised that there's sth amissed for a very long time already...

i know you love us too ((:

i do not know very much about the rest...

but..

dont you feel that we seem to have drifted quite abit yet i dunno y?

if i dont say it...they dont say it..

and nothing's done to it....i'm afraid all of us will drift...further...

that's not sth i wan....

bcos...

i'd always smile when i think of you guys...all of us....

DaClique..

i cherish this.

i believe in fate...and affinity..i always do...

so many things have happened lately...

i'd say that none of it is happy..

happiness seems to be so far away from me...

maybe it's too afraid to come close to me..

bcos..

i am unhappy..

i dun seem to be smiling..

i just realised it when sum1 mentioned it to me ydae..

my chapter has closed..

and i dont wish to fall into it anymore again..it's very painful for me..till now..it is.

i have a simple bdae wish..

i once had a bdae..celebrated on the road (Deadend)

where the group of us merely sat down and tok...

and once had a bdae celebrated flying kite at marina...

this year...

i've been to this place many many times..

and i still wish to celebrate it there..

the breeze...the night..it's nice...to have my 18th bdae celebrated there...

where i wld find peacefulness...that i need..that strength to move on..

to be myself again..

我可以任性一点吗？

现在的我好难过啊。。。

不过，我选择不放弃自己。。

加油了，佳蕙！

你会找到快乐的小天使的! ((:

2007-04-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

I didnt noe tt u wear a facade all along.
i cant believe it till i heard abt it.
to tink tt u said it in a jokingly manner to sum1 else abt wad tt means so much more to me.
u just wanna get over and done with it in an irresponsible manner and shake it off ur mind
without considering the no. of times u have hurt me so much.
bcos u onli care abt getting it done and nth else apart from it. tt includes ignoring completely abt how i feel. mind you, i'm a girl. i may seem to be strong and tell u tt i'm fine. fact is, how am i supposed to be fine when so many things have happened and you have hurt me so much???
all along, u took the amt of effort i've put in for granted and you've never cherished it.
for the past 8 mths plus, i've been living in misery each day.
but i noe i've gotta let go after i've heard abt tt conversation.
bcos i'm beginning to doubt abt ur personality and character. whether or not the guy i liked for so long is worthy of my love or not.
i wun budge anymore. i wun shun you anymore. i've decided to face up with the truth instead of having to deceive myself further.
right from the moment that the ring is returned. you said i cld return it to you when i've made up my mind.
once and for all,
it's completely over.
i can no longer tell myself, "jiahui, no matter wad happens, no matter how mean he is to you, hold on, bcos he means so much more to you."
no longer.

2007-04-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps. changed backgrd music again. cant help it yeah. neyo's new song's so omg. haha. must listen! xD

aye. i didnt go to sch today. i'm just sian. i feel uncomfortable being in sch.
aint feel lyk gg to sch. at least for now. yeap.
a pity tt i cant do anything to it.

casting tt aside, the onli thing tt's gonna keep me gg is : I passed my maths and chem test! wahahhaah! cos i thot. yeap. it was so gonna b mm..goner kinda thing. haha! 80% of the cohort failed chem u see. haha. yea. happy. ((:
i'm gonna continue working hard.
aye. but...c lit. hais. worrying.

what do i really want? what must i do to make myself feel better?
i cant avoid this issue man.
the more i'm avoiding, the more it haunts me.
gawd. i'll pray it's gonna be over soon.
it sucks when you cant conc bcos of dis.
many things undone..
many songs unwritten. damn.
when will my miracle happen?
she who is silent is forgotten;
she who does not advance falls back;
she who stops is overwhelmed;
out distanced, crushed;
she who ceases to grow becomes smaller;
she who leaves off, gives up;
the condition of standing still is the beginning of the end
.... ...
i noe..but how to do it???
i'd rather not talk to you till i noe what to do.

2007-04-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

好辛苦，很难受。
我想我再也没有勇气支持下去。。
散。

2007-04-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

TAKE A GUN. POINT AT ME. AND SHOOT.

GRRRRRRR! THERE WERE METEOR SHOWERS YDAE!!! Y DIDNT I GO AND SEE???
OKAY. I'M SUCH A DUMB ASS.
GRRRRRRRRRRRR. METEOR SHOWERS LEH! SO PRETTY!!!

The next meteor shower is the Lyrids on April 22.
Name
Date of Peak
Moon Phase
Quadrantids
January 4
Full Moon
Lyrids
April 22
Evening crescent
Eta Aquarids
May 6
Morning gibbous
Delta Aquarids
July 28
Full Moon
Perseids
August 13
New Moon
Orionids
October 21
Evening gibbous
Leonids
November 18
Evening gibbous
Geminids
December 14
Evening crescent

grrr. pek chek. aye. pek chek.
it seems to be.....i dunno how.

2007-04-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

Just pictures. i'm kinda lazy to blog.

refer to qi's blog for further details.

i dunno. it seems to be getting worse each day. evything i do is worthless and perhaps, a bother.

i dunno y i'm doing that. i just cant tell myself, "No. stop it." it aint gonna work dis way. perhaps, i shd get lost and refrain from bothering u no more. if that is what u wanna. i dunno lar. u wldnt b bothered anyway.that has always been the case is it not. i dunno. dunno what i'm typing. i just dun feel good about it. i cant deceive myself. my 18th bdae's in less than 2 wks time. i aint wanna my 18 to be like this. it aint like what i've thought of. this nice person playing instru singing happy bdae to me.aww. so nice. no more. dunno lar. u guys wun get what i'm toking abt in anyway. i'm just so not happy the further apart as it is. in fact even further like never before.i wish i cld disappear lyk the way i did in my dreams. yeah. SCREAM.

2007-04-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

...and i still feel not quite right.

2007-04-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

Emo.

That seems to be pretty much quite a large chunk of the vibes im feeling around me

these days around campus.
Crap.

Thanks for being such a jerk alright.

Anyway, on a lighter note, well done peepz.

Tk choir has clinched the gold with honours award once again!

and i passed my maths test too. LOL.

I'm interested in this 'Poetry for the unclaimed soul'. Hope i'll get it soon enuff.

Damn. Emo.

2007-04-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! finally got the song on my blog ((:
so if u lyk emo songs just as i do and avril lavigne's style of singing and the arrangement,
you're gonna fall in love with dis song for the 1st time listening to it just lyk i do! ((:

"When You're Gone"
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

2007-04-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

blessed with the love from an angel ((:

p.s. can any nice fellow that has the song when you're gone by avril lavigne (mp3 though) send me the song pls??? it's darn nice but i cant get the mp3 version ):

2007-04-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

i'm skeptical abt _______.

Hoping to peel off from that mudane surface of everyday life.

sad to say,

we are all

masterpieces of impressionism

and post-impressionism.

i wish to stay away.

2007-04-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

life is fraught with so much difficulties.

i'm so sick and tired of evything.

thats so unbecoming of me.

sigh`.

i just wanna b tt gingerman out there and have a nice companion by my side.
)):
if only things were that easy.

hais.

p.s. quit reading my blog if you dislike my contents. get this right. this is my blog. stop those nonsense pls. i jus dun wanna loathe anyone or anybody. i'm beginning to drift away at this rate if this continues. not like they have never done it before. whatever the case, i'll just let it past but i aint know how much longer can i take this. damn. save me.

2007-04-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

SMILE ((:

Smiling is infectious,
you catch it like the flu,
When someone smiled at me today,
I started smiling too.
I passed around the corner
and someone saw my grin
When he smiled I realized
I'd passed it on to him .
I thought about that smile
then I realized its worth,
A single smile,
just like mine
could travel round the earth.
So, if you feel a smile begin,
don't leave it undetected
Let's start an epidemic quick,
and get the world infected!

SMILE! =PpPp

Things do go wrong as they sometimes will...When the road u're trudging seems all uphill....no urge to smile, but to sigh... rest if you must, but do not quit ((: je crois que tu peux le faire! Smile always! =P

2007-04-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

how sweet.

yet impossible.

2007-04-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

是否曾经持久地望着那无边无际的大海？
尝试去观察大海一天，你会发现，大海的颜色会改变。而且是随着天色，时间，及太阳的位子在改变。从小，当我想起大海时，就会联想到蓝色。但其实大海只不过是透明的水，它的颜色，是天空的反射。它会随着天空的颜色，而变色，很奇妙吧？

再想想，世界上有很多画面，很多景色都是很美的。只不过人们已经忙得没有时间注视它的美了。街上的一草一木，一对老夫妇牵着手过马路，一对小狗在院子里玩，婴儿的笑容，你曾想过这一切是多么地美吗？有些时候，不是我们没见到，而是在我们忙碌的生活里，竟让这些画面与我们擦身而过。我们长期待看见流星，彩虹，等等叫人看了心旷神怡的事物。其实，我们会如此珍惜看见彩虹的那幕，是因为我们不常见到。天天见到的那些美景，我们却一一地忽略了。家人及朋友也一样。经常见到的那些人，往往是我们最容易忽略的。看久了，烦了，腻了，厌倦了，我们的心，就渐渐地把他们遗忘了。许多时候，我们总要等到出了事，才真正地体会到，他们在我们心中的份量。。。

想跟你们说声－对不起。那些我曾经忽略的人，现在也还在忽略的人。。。

今天才发现，原来让自己快乐，可以很简单。有些惊喜是自己所能满足的，有些快乐，也可以是如此地简单。去做些自己喜欢的事，无聊的时候，买个自己喜欢的东西，效劳自己。即使是再幼稚不过的事，但不是伤天害理的事，只要能让自己欣慰地笑一笑，其实快乐是可以很轻易得到的。幼稚是不分年龄的，我们常常以社会上的人所视我们的，为我们做人的标准。人们因此在不知不觉中，失去了自我，努力的遮盖别人所视我们为不应该的行为。但人人本来就有自己特别的地方，如果人人都达到了社会的标准，那世上就不会有不同的人了。其实很多时候，我们只需要做我们自己，那你也能很轻易的去寻找，自己那简单的快乐。

有人说，人生好比一条很漫长的路，看不见尽头的路。路途遥远，一路上也不免遇上崎岖，当然也少不了一帆风顺的时候。有时候你会遇到朋友与你通行，更不免有敌人逆你而行。有些时候真不知是该防人还是相信他人好。但人生就只能活一次，是应该好好享受的。与其天天在猜疑别人，不如选择相信，让自己也好过一些。人要懂得知足常乐，懂得往远处看。当暴风来袭时，其实就是彩虹要出现的时候。想到那七彩美丽的彩虹，或许现在的暴风雨已经什么也不是了。继续勇敢地走下去吧，即使乌云遮盖了太阳，没有一丝光芒的时候，仍然要勇敢地走。因为再大的暴风雨，也有雨过天晴的一天。就让这条路上留下最美好的回忆。。。

了解了，我们的事，就暂时告一段落好了。还有大半年好好想清楚，在这段时期里，让我们鼓励彼此，好好加油吧！没错，今天的会面是对的。。。我的心中终于有了答案了。（静静地与你坐着看海，其实也是一种幸福）..

2007-04-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hi world.

Had a mugging session at Pp ydae. saw yicheng. bt tts not the pt. the pt is, i fell in love with this heart shaped wooden musical box at 'in a box'! it's darn lovely! i swear it is! hahah! for pple who really noes me well, they are aware of my love for musical boxes cos as far as i cld remb, the very 1st bdae gift i had received from my daddy was a musical box! hahaahhha. i'm really hoping to receive 1 for my bdae! (: (hints* so badly haha)

anyway, just to side track a lil, was reading ______'s blog...
he's super lame with his super funny language. ahhaha. anyway, just an extract from his blog.....

"This few days keep on not feeling well, must be kenna the Fit virus from Ah Fit. I so strong also will get sick ar. Then yesterday went to see ___ and ___ the campus superstar auditions round 2. Actually hope __ will get in one but never, must be never pray to ___ then no luck. Then ___ is confirm get in one lar that bastard, first round audition sing the song haven even sing until chorus the judge stop him then Ding-Dong Ding-Dong already ar. Not like ___, is get Teh then out already. At night then went to Teo Heng KTV with _____. Wah, we finally not so old fashioned already ar, last time see them pick the songs all is Zhang Xue You, Andy Lau, then sometimes will Wu Bai And even worse got Dao Lang one. Now at least more of Wang Li Hong, Tank those singers. And the highlight of the whole night is ____. He super siao ar, he from last year learning Thai already, then when going to sing finish already he keep on searching for Thai songs sing. Starting still thought he being stupid, in the end when the song come out he really can sing ar, somemore sing nicer than he sing chinese songs. Everyone was like super stun and laughing like dunno wat. Then somemore he sing super like the original singer, like no difference liddat. The song is Sa-Bai Sa-Bai by Bird Thong Chai. Next time got the video already post it here."

darn funny rite? muahahhaahs. (:
oh ya. i wanna thank giraffe too. check dis out.

"to all my friends who are feeling unhappy out there, try to look at the bright side of life. life is just like a maths question. there's no problem that can't be solved. it all depends on how you view the situation.
like what mr tan (sec4 emaths teacher) has said during PCCG, "you can choose whether to wake up feeling happy or dejected in the morning, and this decision can make a great difference to your life."
try to treasure and show more concern towards the people around you or you'll feel sorry and live in agony after you've lose them. that will be too late to salvage the relationship then. i'm not at all a nice person.
i have my weaknesses (a lot in fact) but this is the simple rule that i'll try to stick to in life.the conclusion for this boring post is simple. everyone must smile more!
have a positive attitude towards life. for there are always people who are less fortunate than all of us. there's no reason for us to frown for every obstacle that we'd faced in life right? it's pointless harping over the same old problem. so get over it and move on. or let nature take its own course.

"Get real. Nobody can sort life's problems by themselves. If we are not doing so well on our own, find understanding, outside support."

thanks giraffe! =D

and thanks to our holy saint beast for putting dis sun thingie on her blog to cheer me up (:
and thanks daClique!

and thanks to yiliang too. dun worry too much abt ur comp and march block la. will be fine (:

and thanks kee. muahhaahha. wasted so much tme and effort on me =X

lionel. yeah. i dunno wad to say. but yeah. BIG THANKS! =PpPp

....and i'm still tinkin of my LOVELY MUSICAL BOX!!!!!!! ): i wan it so badly!

2007-03-31T12:06:00.000+08:00

"God grant us the serenity to accept the things

we cannot change,

courage to change the things we can,

and wisdom to know the difference."

`knowing the difference, how should i go about it?

the former or the later?

it's all about you.

sudden surge of "emo-ness".

tell me how for i aint know how. )):

p.s. my semi transparent luminous blue bear necklace.

2007-03-30T20:08:00.000+08:00

I've learnt. so much from the people around me, the series of shocking news that i've heard one after another. it's just...too much...far too overwhelming for me..

something really terrible happened exactly 1 week ago...and i'm still trying so hard to get over it....i was really really really upset and hurt bcos i didnt noe tt things wld really turned out to be so sour for bth of us... actually, i was kinda pissed as well...it's lyk he knew that things were going the wrong way...i mean...it was pretty easy to sense it...but didnt bother clearing it up earlier...causing so much misunderstandings...perhaps, he really didnt noe. no one has ever said such mean stuff to me except him, the one and only guy i've truly liked in sch. it was the meanest thing i've ever heard and the shockin news from dihui that he actually treats me lyk a little sister and at the same time, confused abt what he really wants. that nite, i didnt much care abt anything...the one and only question i had in mind was tt...."had he ever liked me b4?" tts all i was interested in. i wasnt interested if he cld promise me something or anything. all i wanted to noe was if he ever had feelings for me. i wld have accepted it if he really felt nth for the past 7 going 8mths..bt not bcos he cldnt promise me anything...cos i really dont need him to promise me anything. he said he didnt have tt kind of special feelings....question is...does he noes how he is feeling? one should always act according to how his/her heart feels instead of listening to what his/her brain thinks it is...is it not? and tt includes not listening to frens.. actually..i did lied to him. i told him that the feelings faded somewhere along the line and then it came back recently. actually, it's not. the fact is, the feelings i had for him was so intense that it didnt once faded......i'm so sry to lie. but i really didnt want you to know abt this. at least, it's ok now. i noe that you wun be reading my blog since u're hardly online these days. it doesnt matters already. i'm no longer impt to you...perhaps...never was there once tt i've ever crossed ur mind... i mean...i dunno....you didnt seem to be keen in smsing or even toking to me....maybe...you may even find me a bother for the past 8 mths.....

but now...it's all over. i jus wanna say that i nv regretted lyking you. it is through this hard and ardous process that have made me a much stronger person. at times, all i wanted was sum1 to be dere to share his thoughts with me be it happy, good or sad. when i'm with you.....i really have got lotsa things to say and share with you...but it doesnt cums out easily....i really dunno why either. i've got lotsa crazy plans to do with you when i'm with you instead of movies, movies and more movies....sumhow....i wasnt able to carry them out.........

right now....i swear i dunno what you're thinking abt....perhaps, i never knew. u are always keeping things to urself...u hardly share with me...and now i noe why u hardly did....bcos, to you, i m just a normal classmate that never once walked into ur life...oh man...tt sounds so upsetting, isnt it? aint too sure why, it seems so hard to control my tears these days. and as i'm typing this...they just roll dwn my cheeks...to tell the truth...the reason why i left the lep rm on wed for a short while was bcos....i almost wept in the lep rm..and i didnt wanna do so in his presence. so i took a stroll around the school b4 settling dwn. even now as i'm typing this, i know i still do like you despite knowing you were so mean to me...call me dumb...but yeah. i'm just pretending to the whole world but i cant bluff myself tt i really do and pretending to be happy when i'm in school. i'm so hurt. how can i possibly be happy?

right now, i'm trying my best to forgive and forget about what happened. that includes, leaving you out of my mind. yes, i may be forcing it out. but i've got to do it. i just had to do it. i've been carrying tt with me for the past 1 wk...still contemplating if i shd give it back to you...i dunno. i onli know tt i've got to let you go a long time ago....i kept having flashbacks these days about those happy times we shared....especially the very first time at the beach....and the code we once shared on msn...even as i'm trying to forget....those memories still lingers on....it's so tough....so difficult for me to bear....is it the same for you too? perhaps, it's not. you didnt even care. looking at you in school, it was lyk u were nonchalent...and perhaps relieved tt u have told me about it..........actually, do i really mean so little to you? of so little significance? well, i guessed that's the case. it was easy for you with not much of feelings attached, yet, it's so hard for me. damn, it's so painful. aye. i hate tears.

after so much stuff....lyk wad mr koh said....i hope tt i'm still "a pleasant girl with a sweet deposition to you" instead of other mean stuff.....bcos i'm just a simple girl that has been madly in love with you for so long...tts all. aye. i swear i hate tears. ))::

2007-03-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

i'm a HAPPY GIRL!!! X)

me and my dearie at smu rooftop! oops. where's eugene?

may i present to u my 2nd lover, BUBBLE TEA ICE CREAM! YAY!!!

p.s. i'm madly in love with ya! i love ya =P

2007-03-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

you hardly cared. or rather, never at all.

2007-02-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

this is a post abt how i'm feeling rite nw..aft knowing certain stuff..it aint an entry tt is exciting or anything..so yeap...go ahead if u guys wanna read lor.

mm..i'm realli neither angry nor upset wiv anything. it's just..shocking piece of truth from one of my dearies. things r lyk fine rite nw...bt sumhow..i needa find sum peace wiv myself...calm down my dear! aye. abit hard to believe sia la. i must chill chill chill chill chill! keep cool. smile. be positive. alrite. buy bb tea 2mr. will be fine by then. i jus needa accept this shockin piece of news (=

2007-02-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY SPECIAL PART 4

i tink i've gone insane or sth. wads up wiv me cuming up wiv a part 4 man? LoL.

Here it goes...for pple i didnt thanked...

Waiyin

heh. thanks for the cookies and the flowers! no doubt i've not received it! haha (:

Yi Liang and Elaine

okay. elaine's the one wearing spects. oh boy. dun i look like a tomboy? hehe.

okay. the one in black is yiliang. and yes, tts felicia chin! x )

muahahah. i oso have! (:

Thanks! i've received it! Yi liang i'm waiting for ur wushu performance! watched ya performed for the past 5 yrs! how can i miss dis round? muahaha~ oh ya. hey folks. i saw miss goh at vivocity on friday! she lost weight sia! aye. y did she quit teaching? ): mm..sorry elaine for i wasnt able to accompany u back to tk..another time alrite? i miss the crispy noodles, the chicken rice and the western food uncle! x) and of course, i miss ya! the laz time i saw ya was during the mjc vs teejay soccer lor..i still remb lor...cos i was a traitor back then...supported mjc. haha. wad to do? i miss mj too much. >_<

see! it's blooming! hehe >_<

Some of the girls in my class~

From left: Feng Lin (pw!), yi-an (dun worry! stay happy okay?), tts me, li si (i've known ya for almost 8 yrs..but i dunno u well! tsk. be more chatty!), xuan yun (my good kaki during econs, she's nice and very TALL)

Ling Ting

haha. during mardi gras. (=

can u believe she made tt box herself using construction paper? woots. 8 yrs and still counting.

Mascot joe!

poor joe. welfare ic..hais.

Miss Fong

i swear i wldnt be who i m w/o her. it's thanks to her tt i didnt give myself up for other options the other time round. and i'm glad tt i've proven myself right! miss fong, as promised, i wldnt let ya dwn! (:

Mortals...

tts me! the xtra! muahahah~

Xin An

okay! tts all 4 nw~ shall blog abt CNY soon! byebye.

crap. my sore throat is back. ):

2007-02-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY SPECIAL PART 3

Ladies and gentleman.... i can finally reveal myself as Anavil's angel!

Anavil is certainly a very nice chap! Lyk wad i wrote in one of my letters to him...he's hot when he dances.. charismatic when he smiles...good lookin too! Nevertheless, he's one sweet mortal (:

That's the part when i revealed myself. hehe. x) Stuff tt he has gotten for me....

It's this glass cup that he has plated for me with his gold pen. there's hershey's in it too! and i tink he has really taken off quite sum time to do up with so much stuff! that's y...dis entry is for him! x )

"She loves purple and he knows~" AWW! thank u! =P

that's me and his purple glass rose! mm well. have ur focus on the rose!

That's the tissue purple rose tt he did for me!!! PRO.

That's his calculator btw. Apparently, he has lent his calculator out for our chem spa and he himself w/o a calculator for his maths test! As a result, he had to borrow from sum1 else's...BUT. he didnt noe how to operate tt calculator well! see! that's very nice of him (=

The angel and mortal game was really fun and i really liked him being my mortal =P There are 2 thais which i have known so far..1 of them is anavil of course, and the other is kinara. Having him as my mortal brought back alot of memories on my part wiv kinara back in TK. it was in the middle of the yr during sec2 when she had to return back to bangkok due to family problems. and i've never got the chance to see her ever again. if i remb correctly, i took a year to dismiss the fact tt she was gone. we could never chit chat in class...having seated side by side..singing during lessons...playing a fool after school..and such. tt was wad i found a pity...during my sec sch life tt such a gr8 fren was no longer there by my side anymore...): oh man....kinara...i miss euuuuuu......haish. i'm still counting dwn till the day we'll meet again~it's 3 yrs gg on 4 yrs since i've last seen ya... but still, in my heart, u're irreplaceable! Darling, we'll meet again!!!

OOPS. y do i feel so sad suddenly? tsk. Anyway, I'm gonna miss the times writing in to u during lessons (even though i noe it's wrong)....the presents i've given to ya..(i smelled my deodorant on ya when we took photo 2gether wahahha~good good!!) and hope tt u've enjoyed being my mortal as well! x)

Thank you ANAVIL! (=
can i thank u for being a thai too?? cos i miss kinara!!! argh!

p.s. i'm gonna miss ya drawings and ur lolness. muahaha. i noe u noe wad i mean! (:

2007-02-17T17:04:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY SPECIAL PART 2

Wow! I wonder how much more have I gotta blog about! It's like so much more to go! Oh no...Nevertheless...i gotta complete thanking every1 huh? (:

DaCliQue (5 of us)

Awww~ ShooO SweeT!

4 of us...

DaCliQue + Xia Lang + Fu Zhuo + Robin

Koala bear!

Me, Qi, Fu Zhuo

Suddenly, fu zhuo transformed himself into a Big guai kia. woa. 1st time in 4 yrs huh >_<

DaCliQue + Xia Lang

Xia lang looks slpy here huh? or is he acting cute? Lolness. =D

Thank you Qi Ling

Thank you Leck

Erm. Clip from ah leck. chocolate from di hui. rocher from si xuan, chapanglang from keeyann (=

Thank you Di Hui Sugar Daddy

He gave us chocolates!

Thank you Kee Yann

I love ya babe! (she requested dis. MUAHAHA~) =P

Lovely (=

Me, Kee Yann, Xinyi

Thank you Wai Kit

Thank you Qi En
Qi En, my daddy loves ur couplets! (:

Thank you Lionel

U noe me best. (=

Mervyn

heh. mervyn! si xuan's neighbour! he's a REAL MONKEY!

Ryan

The famous beatboxer aka mc for sports carnival! winner of O1! I wanna hear him beatbox sexyback la! oh ya. I like the way he smiles! sunshine~

Xiang Ting

HAHAH. No1 can beat her sunshine smile! =P

Darren

ERM. yeah. I admit defeat. he can act cute more than i do. i found dis pic as my wallpaper in my hp. z.Z

Ya Wen

She's super duper nice! i mean it~

Xuan Yun

HAHA. ehh y u nv pon econs b4? tsk. i'm so guilty =X

Fann

My cute junior! dun ya tink she looks lyk superstar diya? (:

Do you noe y i'm wearing tk uniorm? ahah. jus look at the photo la! >_<

from left to right. tk, nanyang girls', dhs, peicai, cgs.

ahhh~buey tahan le...to be continued...

2007-02-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY SPECIAL PART 1

On 'Go Green Day'...

Oh well, i reached Sg at abt 4 plus am on 'Go Green Day'. As a result, i ONLY had an hour of slp. This is how i look like when i lack of slp.

Don't ya tink it's disastrous? ok. maybe it's retarded.

Erm yeah. Disturbance.

oh man. how unglam can i get? haha. oh well. nvm.

Aye. 'Go Green Day' was kinda boring plus the fact tt i was extremely slpy. So let's jus skip tt part and continue shall we? (: okay. How abt after 'Go Green Day'?

BAKING CHOCOLATE CHIPS COOKIES...

This was the toughest part for me i guess. Went home str8 after having fish & co and slept for half an hr. Initially, i intended to laze around till it was about dinner time and then meet up wiv qi and fen to bake cookies. The unfortunate thing was tt they knew i was gg to laze around and not get out of my bed. Despite me not picking up my phone calls, they sumhow got me up thru the help of my brother. damned. cos they called my hse. argh. =.= there goes my slp! oh well. nvm. cos i had fun!

The process...

Ingredients: Sugar, flour, choc chips, vanilla essence, butter

That's me! (Aye. i was too exhausted. besides, it was more comfortable to sit than to stand for hrs baking cookies huh.)

That was wad we intended to do initially. c the alphabets in it? we wanted to make them for our vips bt it failed to work. the letters didnt turn out well ): moreover, it was tedious! let me explain to u why i thot it was tedious.

For instance, take my mortal's name. He's called ANAVIL. tt's 6 letters oredi. and there's no way i can make his name into any short forms. if u call him ana, it sounds wrong. how abt vil? mm. weird. anne? ann? ahh. cannot. it sounds disgusting. haha. as a result, we decided to standardize everything instead. (: and tt's fairer, isnt it? =D hehe!

DaCliQue proudly presents to u......

OUR COOKIESssss!!! =P

Hoho. for ur information, a total of 267 cookies were made! (excluding those tt were crushed!) They were distributed to our dear 24/06, our buddies, our mortals, tchers, as well as the ogms (: comments given were pretty positive! YIPEE! =D in anyway, we really hoped tt u guys wld really like our cookies cos qi, fen and i were baking them from abt 5 pm till wee hrs of the night before heading dwn to dis 24 hr roti prata hse 4 dinner....it's the thoughts tt counts, isnt it? >_<

see! i told ya we were tired! time taken: 1.51am z.Z retarded me wiv qi still hyped up for i dunno wad reasons. and our princess ZZZZZZzzz already. muahahah~

Anyway, sumwhere along laz wk, fen and i were deciding on our makan place at parkway. apparently, we were too sick of the usual stuff. we decided to try thai food since my mortal, anavil, is a thai. Here are sum pictures of the food tt we've tried. for ur information, we chose dis buffet set tt cums along wiv 14 dishes. tts lyk OMG. i'm wasting food again! ARGH! i'm so sry. but i never really tried thai food at Siam Kitchen b4 mah. can be excused! haha.

AT SIAM KITCHEN...

keropok! (:

Thai rice. but i tink there's herbs in it. heh. Yum yum!

That's the Green Curry. Name given cos it was green? hehe. sourish wiv a tinge of freshness! i like! Lemon chicken, pickles, minced meat and egg plus onion (=

erm. i cant remb wad's all dis. haha. paiseh!

hehe. but i'm pretty sure tt i will get dis right! this is the FAMOUS Tom Yum soup! it's super duper spicy and super duper sourish! and i mean it. cos i merely took a sip and then i had to drink 3 big cups of ice lemon tea in order to feel better! x) okay. maybe i'm lousy. haha. so spicy!

okay. Enuff for dis blog entry. sumhow i tink i went a lil out of point cos i'm blogging about food. muahaha~ okay. Enjoy reading on! Part 2. =D

2007-02-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

I'M FEELING DAMN LOUSY NOW. i gotta apply for poly 1st thing in the morning 2mr since it is the closing date for it. and i've got no1 to go wiv me. none of them wanted to go wiv me despite me pleading to go. it's lyk so shitty. it's so impt and scary yet u hav no1 to accompany wiv becos every1 has their own selfish reasons for rejecting u. furthermore, my parents needa work. i dread dis kind of admin stuff to settle. Moreover, it's at MOE. i hav no idea where the hell it is. and i'm so freaking scared.

i failed my maths test despite passing chem and econs. and it was bcos i was careless. hais. i dunno lar. can go commit suicide liao lar. not as if i didnt work hard for it. i mean, i'm already very hardworking as it is liao. life sucks.
i hate sch.

2007-02-04T17:17:00.000+08:00

A million thanx to lio 4 helping mi check out my mortal's blog! hehe.
actualli it all started out bcos he doesnt noes wad's angel and mortal game
jus lyk kor. and i hav to explain. =.= haha. then started chatting and he
found mi his blog! haha. thankie! i promise nicer prezzie 4 ya alrite! =D
HAIS. i'm going broke. heng i teach! haha.

aniwae, tt song on my mortal's blog realli caught my attention.
it reminded mi of someone. so i actualli went to check out tt song.
it's composed by our local artist kelvin fok, a 21 year old aspiring singer-songwriter.
it's kinda hard to dl tt song so u guys may wanna get it from me though.
aniwae, i'm gonna change my track to dis 1. it's called, "Beautiful"

Beautiful- kelvin fok

G
I dont know
C
If Im the one for you in this life
D
I cant help
G
Hearing my voice calling your name
G
Cuz when I
C
Trying so hard not to look in your eyes
D
Maybe I
G
Have fallen in love with you

Well tonight
Maybe this time I can hear your breathe
Its alive
To see you smile with those tears in your eyes
They may say
That youre just a girl in this spinning world
In my heart
Youre like the world to me

Touch my hand; feel my heart
Hold me close and Youll find me
Youll find me

G
I cant so describe
Em
How I feeling deep inside
C G/B
So much more than I can say
C D
With your touch it feels so right
G
Oh my, youre so near
Em
All the time in this place
C G/B
For I know in my heart
C D
Ill never let you go
C
In this lifetime
G/B Em
Do you know why oh baby
Am
Cus youre just so
D G
Beautiful to me

hais. will u play it 4 me too? (O.S: *deep in thoughts*)

and ya. so sry pple. i nv update my blog again. =X
was too lazy and slpy ah. didnt noe y either. i wasnt particularly bz dis
wk though. haha.

and i'm doing a duet for the auditions on friday. aint know wad to sing.
was tinkin of singing a song i composed. bt wad if it sucks? kinda
embarrassing isnt it? mm. ):

leck's obsessed wiv lomo. and here's a few pics taken by her!

erm yeah. dis is the pic when i wasnt ready and she snapped. hoho. z.Z

SEE that! my hand and my shoes! (:

tts xiang ting and wilson! they're a sweet and cute couple!

and on moday.....

as we were bored....

tt's peifen's hand. hoho. teeJay lOOKS so small in here. x)

1 little..2 little..3 little donkeys..hah.

it's amazing. how did my hair stand? =X

oh ya. tokin abt hair. kor dyed his hair RED yesterdae. WOW!
i wanna see bt he refuses to show me ):

mm. valentine's day is cuming.

valentine's dae is oso frenship dae. it gets mi reminiscing abt
the past. EVERYTHING abt the past.
they were so wonderful.
mm...AWW~ randomness at work again.
and nw~ it's no longer the same.
gonna fight the advancement criteria alone, working hard.
i'm stressed to the max oredi.
luckily angel and mortal spiced up my life a lil lately.
and lionel's gr8 at jokes. haha. apparently,
was supposed to catch a movie wiv sum1 ydae.
bt i cancelled it in the end cos the timing was so wrong.
and i wanna watch happy bdae badly.
i was very disappointed.
bt i had to b understanding though.
wad to do?

---

love is patient and kind. it encompasses evything, is it not? (:
even if it means tt it aint gonna b reciprocated in any way, u jus wish
tt person to b living happily.

and i dont know...
But I do know one thing ..

It's you who make me stronger..
I need you more than ever..
You're the reason why I'm singing for you
It's you who create the wonders..
In all my days of struggles
It's your love that surrounds my whole world

Sometimes I cry when I'm lonely..
When it all just seems so real..
But there's one thing that I can't deny
Is your love that's in my life...

ahh. pardon me. i'm randoming all of a sudden~
i don't know~

seeing these things...

haish.

class photo is out.

like FINALLY kinda thing. =P

---

aint know y either. i'm kinda sick of sch and sum pple oredi.
aint know wad i'm tinkin.
but i noe.

BE HAPPY! jiahui~

2007-01-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

I slept lyk a PIG. lyk real pig. argh. wiv nth accomplished. yay! no needa slp 2nite le. i slept lyk all the way. until nw and it's almost 11pm. woohoo and pple are gg to slp. was lyin on my bed reading tt idiotic chem equi when my eyes gav its way. ahah. and wads worse, my hair was wet. yuck. i hate to slp wiv wet hair. it's kinda boring 2dae wiv nth much to blog abt. and i'm kinda disappointed nt being able to catch tt movie so soon. it's lyk on daes when i'm free, he's nt. on daes when he's free, i'm NOT. YUCK. y lidat lar. ): and my mummy la! aiyo i fixed evything liao then cum and book me. =.=

and i wanna go CHINATOWN!!! how can u call a CNY a CNY when u're not gg to chinatown to at least take a walk? haha. i go evy yr 4 ur info if u're unaware. ahahah. miss tt ice-cream stall and my MUAJI lar. I CANT WAIT 4 CNY! i wan HONGBAO!!! HOHO x)

WHEE! another month passed! time flies! tts gd 4 me! at least for the 1st 2 months yeah. another mth of observation and i'm over and done with! YAY! it's really scary to b observed. and trust me, u wldnt like it. i'm happy wiv my chem. at least, my efforts werent put to waste. however, hais there's always a HOWEVER. my maths! wth. DE and vectors u yucky DE and vectors. and i tink i seriously hav nt much affinity in maths. i studied and practised so damn hard. was confident walkin in, and then uh huh, came out wiv this WTH look on my face when it's time to collect the paper. COS, I DUNNO HOW 2 DO AND I DIDNT COMPLETE IT! ARGH! and i tink i will get lyk 5/25? god, tt's HORRIBLE. and it's counted. fiak, how can i get such grades? i'm being observed, mind u! tink will die until v cham. and i havent gotten back my econs. it's damn scary. hais, i'm worried. ): ): ):

oh ya. there's dis angel and mortal game gg on! so cool. cos i've got a yandao called anavil. heard tt he's got thai blood in him. and he's a pageant for O1! and i heard abt how he tried helping tt girl on stage. oh boy, tts so sweet. i will melt if sum1 does tt for me too! i mean, who wun? haha. so cool. thai.lyk KINARA. KIN, hurry back! havent seen u for 3 yrs leh! and wads more, he replied on tt dae itself! wah! i'm impressed wiv tt speed. bt peifen kept complaining tt it's a boring reply. hahah. yandao = boring? erm, lionel if i consider u as yandao. hoho. then tt makes u boring! =X gd analogy i've got huh. aiya. and i cant wait to find out my ANGEL. heard tt it's a J1. ahah. angel, dun b a lazy 1 alrite? cos i wan my letter! HAHA!

and i was up at my ah ma's hse ydae. she was having an asthma. hais. i hope she's feeling better 2dae. (: then, as usual, i started playing wiv yanqi! haha, she's so cute! and i was carrying her in my attempt to take photos wiv her. and she tried to grab my phone! tt xplains y the photos wiv mi inside r kinda screwed. i'll show ya!

HAHA. it's amazing how fast babies grow up!

PRINCESS PEIFEN. i found this in her toys set. i tink it suits u. it's a PINK HEART SHAPED COMB! HOHO. x)

haha. yanqi in her SARONG!

adorable hor? she loves chuckling to herself as she mummbles some baby languages tt i cant make anything out of it. haha. oh ya. u noe gong xi fa cai? she noes how to do the GONG XI FA CAI ACTION! damn cute! tink she will get alot of hongbao!

haha. tts abt it. i go hav my dinner nw. it's close to 11. oh my, i dun wanna get fat! =D

2007-01-28T01:33:00.000+08:00

S.H.E'S CONCERT! 270107

PHOTOS 1ST. i'm tired. check out the time nw.

THE START.

Fahrenheit.

SELINA.

erm. yeah. i'm too lazy to upload more photos. i've got alot more. u may ask from me if u wan more. OH YA. i saw EVADNE LAR. ahahha. like evytme coincidental. hahah. and tt stupid darren called when the concert started =.=

aiya. the concert ended at 11 plus. and was jammed like siao la.
indoor was S.H.E outdoor stadium was an ongoing soccer match. the whole kallang was flooded wiv pple.

and wads nx? my sis and i cldnt get hme. for goodness sake. we cldnt even flag 4 a cab. all the cars were oredi taken up. and then, my dad, being my dad, he didnt pick up my calls. left w/o any choice, my sis and i WALKED home reluctantly. WALKED. heng i was wearing flats. phew! cos i kinda expected it. ahah. bt still, i wldnt mind getting to see S.H.E! they're gr8! i LOVE THEM! YIPEE! their songs..had indeed touched the hearts of many others...i remb the 1st tme listening to them was in p6...with their debut..lian ren wei man...and up till nw..wo men zhe me le...aha. and nt forgetting mo li. it makes mi full of gan chu seeing them sing. hahaha. and i noe tt joining li wei song's sch of music wldnt b a wrong choice! yipee! ok. i gtg.

so tired.

fiak. TI. gosh. i cant decide!

2007-01-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

what if i collapse in sch 2mr? oh well. i seriously feel damn unwell. was having diarrhoea since ydae and cough. and nw, my fever is back. yes, for the third time. i shd hav listened to my dad not to swim. and ya. my flu is on its way. i can feel it. ):

i wasnt paying att durin mr ang's xtra make up lesson. the atmosphere was totally wrong. plus the fact tt i was moody. aiya. evything's so wrong.

2007-01-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

there's swimming 2mr! yay! 2dae.damn suay. got gastric cos they didnt wanna hav an early dinner 2dae! and when i got hme, i got diarrhoea! aiyo! and my mum is hurrying mi to take my medicine. bt sumhow, i jus hate the sight of it. so wad nw? maths undone. ok or rather, i hav 6 more qns to go. and our mr rubayn wans songs! and i told him i'm into EMO nwadaes so i wan EMO songs. and then he said, "how abt christina's hurt?" then i went, " oh, tt song too sad. dun wan." then he said, " EH U SUCK. i thot EMO songs r supposed to b sad?" haha. and yeah. tts abt it. i'm blogging nonsense again.

er ya. and my mama bought roses and placed it on my study table. according to her, she says tt girls rm shd hav flowers =.= tts wad happens when u hav a mum who loves flowers. and er ya. my daddy, my uncles, aunties, and ah gong and my sis are gg china nx month. win liao lor. my sis nv fails to not enjoy life! and it's freezing there! actualli they r gg to our hmetown in fujian. the last tme i went dere was during p3..if i'm nt wrong. and i dun get to go! ARGH! nvm. i'll b gg overseas wiv ah mok and ms indian nx yr! YIPEE! so exciting! hehe. a trip w/o parents..damn COOL!

2007-01-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

YIPEE! I M GG TO S.H.E'S CONCERT DIS SAT!!! and 4 ur info, my sis jus bought the same PINK phone as peifen. OMG! i got a shock! stunned.

AHAHHAHAHAH. SO COOL. i'm so gonna clear out my sat 4 S.H.E'S concert! =X

i tink i gonna change phone soon. i'm earning bucks thru tut too! woot! haha. my own money (:
and as 4 nw. i gonna make sure i'll pass all my tests! vectors! c'mon! all things r difficult b4 they r easy, arent they? haha. actually, i'm trying to psycho myself. =X so high 2dae. so happy. YIPEE!!! =D

and was talking to our princess thru the webcam. so funny. can c the sparks thru my comp. and yar. my comp got invaded by dis virus rontokbro! ARGH. tt xplains its lagging =.=

and i gotta update cos princess is complaining tt my blog is stagnant. aiyo. bt i aint got anything interesting to blog abt when i'm sick and i'm at hme. YAR. 4 ur info, i didnt even step out of my hse at all for the whole dae. it's so cold outside! HAHA. i will on sat! SHE concert! OMG! then sun got SHE autograph session at J8. OH fiak. i dun tink i can make it 4 the sun 1. cos i'm teaching tut ok. haha. tt makes mi a tcher. oh no. sounds so old. and i'm singing angela chang's meng li hua nw. it sounds so much lyk mo li hua. ahha. i lyk the chorus. (: and when i've earned enuff bucks, i shall join dis music class at JUZMUSIC. and when i've completely mastered the techniques, i shall teach! hohoho. ah mok cum join mi sing k! lets go 4 vocal training. cos nelson kwei 1 nt powerful enuff. wahaha.. so mean =x

SHIT. havent touched my chem supplementary qns! so dead lar. tt vectors' fault. made mi stuck 4 so long. ARGH. nvm. i'm so high 2dae. hohooo. actualli u'll noe when i'm high. cos when i'm high. i blog abt nth bt crap. and dis entry is tokin abt nth except S.H.E and me earning money. haha.

and i jus heck my probs nw. cos sum1 jus added dis BIG FAT problem on me. bt tt sum1 is the best guy fren i ever had. hey u, tt sum1. u noe who i'm tokin abt. i really dun noe wad 2 do. at least, it isnt tme to dabble in such stuff. i cant bg myself into it cos u noe WHY. and i noe u're v concerned abt mi. afterall..i noe it's a long long way..since sec2..mm. i really appreciate tt thought dere..i mean...it has sought of becuming more and more indispensable these days.. bt it doesnt mean tt it is gg tt way..u get mi? u're my NO.1 best guy buddy and the most YANDAO fren i ever had, ok? haha. praise u abit =X u rawk! hey buddy, tc alrite? dun fall sick lyk mi! all the best 4 ur uncum basketball comp! dun hurt urself again alrite? =Pp jiayou!

tts all 4 nw. shall blog mayb 2mr? haha. flyers! whee. byebye.

2007-01-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

i'm sick. from a minor sore throat to a really serious 1. apparently, i lost my voice ydae becos of tt 6 peanut butter cookies tt i hav eaten. wow. and i didnt even realised i was having fever until i went to c a doctor. =.= tts so, me.

even though i was sick, i still went to batu pahat cos i wanna noe how serious was the flooding conditions over there. it is extremely flooded. there was dis soccer field which was converted into a mini lake when i saw pple rolling boats jus to get across it. i pity the pple dere. hais. and the rain sets in continuously... shall show u sum pictures taken from the car...u'll get wad i mean...

it's still raining! ):

it takes 4-5 hrs to reach batu pahat from sg...and on my way there, many things came across my mind..maybe it's becos of tt weather...and when the rain sets in at arn 5 plus.....my fever..and sore throat..and voice...hais..

have u ever wondered wads wrong wiv me for the past few weeks? well, it's time to reveal then.

sch sucks. life sucks. and amidst the high level of stress i'm getting, i'm facing problems in other aspects as well. i'm hating my life.

the pple arn me...they dun understand. they dun c it, they dun feel it. and even if they hav felt sth was wrong wiv mi...they wld choose not to mention it. i'm so damn unhappy. to think tt pple thought i blew up 4 sum trivial matters. in any case...qn is, wld i? 4 a small matter?

many a times...i really do hav a lot to say....and i often kept quiet....i dint wan anything to turn sour and stuff....so evything wld go bottled up inside mi..it wasnt an overnite kinda of thing. it existed quite sum time ago...jus tt i hav chosen to avoid tt topic. sorry, i cant do dis anymore...it's overwhelming!

if u hav known mi from my secondary sch..u wld hav realised tt drastic change in me....at least...not a facade...

i noe...i didnt do well 4 my promos...and i get condemned 4 it as well. it's lyk..they feel tt i cant do it tt kind of thing.....i hav heard enuff of those hurtful things tt pple sae.....for e.g...during a maths tut in class...." How u noe is lyk dis? i tink u anyhow sae." lyk hello? how abt during a chi tut..." dun bother asking her....she doesnt noes..." or even when i said tt i hav really completed studying 4 chem....pple dun believe mi....." huh? u finished studying?"..."ya...completed evything and read thru evything once more on sun..." ..."oh.....reading thru is not the same as revision" lyk hello? i hav started way b4 hand.... u noe wad i mean.. it's so hurtin! and even if i were 2 b despised upon...u dun hav to say it to me face to face rite? damn, it's so upsetting cuming from her.

hah. dis few wks of sch...was living lyk hell. and when the ogl issue sets in...seeing pple arn me getting crazy over their ogms.......where was i? nowhere. and i'm hearing so much abt them............4 wad? i dunno them! and the fact tt i cldnt b an ogl cos of results.........
so much fun had been added to their lives recently.....i'm happy 4 them and yet....i'm feeling so detached. wads the point of havin a clique when u feel tt u r actualli out of it? and when ppl can pretend tt nth's wrong wiv it...and live on and pretend tt evything's fine? oh well, i aint tt type of person. i cant do dis.

y r my words doubted when it's true? when i heard fr ch telling mi abt wei? wad wld i gain from lyin? cant u jus believe mi? it's such a joke tt u dun.

and when i'm facing so unhappy....i aint able to share it..and when i'm really sick...no1 bothers.......xcept waiyin. i was waiting 4 dis particular sms since ydae....bt it didnt came.......and the thot of him lingers on 4 i dunno wad reasons.......when i noe i'm standing no where in his heart..cos i was nt tt special, lyk wad he said. and i wanted to destress aft all tt tests b4 moving on........and 4 sum reasons, i cant. and when i'm taking all tt initiatives again..........i cldnt understand y my heart works dis way when i noe he wldnt b dere..

i'm hating life. amidst the crowd.......
i've lost myself.
i'm nt gonna put on tt facade anymore. it's time to settle dwn and tink abt it seriously.

2007-01-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

u noe wad? organic chem is seriously driving mi crazy. CRAZY SHIT. was listening to prefect 10 since 12 plus and it's lyk 8 plus nw and i'm still nt done wiv memorising. and hello? i thought i memorised lyk dunno how many times during the holis? gawd. my brain. shitty.

there's chem tut 2mr! oh no. havent practised enuff yet! argh! i need more time! y is the test nx wk lar? cant it b lyk the wk aft or sth? cos i've got econs test on thurs too! it's lyk all cramped up 2gether tt kind of thing. hais. it's always lyk dis lar hor.

was online ydae nite. it's sat nite. haha. and so lil pple online...yucks. haha. so i spent my tme toking to rubayn, verena and keeyann. haha. rubayn's saying tt he's got tt cranes- grain community proj or sth. ahaha. isnt tt the same as tj? oh man. the whole world is doin tt. and haha. verena. was toking to me abt how humans originate? oh man. and she said she's gonna invent sth or wadeva. i 4got. damn lame. my brain went dead ydae lar. so i was practically slacking on a sat nite. ahaha. tt's usual lar. and i'm bloggin crap nw as far u can c. haaha. and how abt keeyann? haha. abit more interesting. i'm sure she has a bf or wad lor. and she refused to say anything. eeyeer. share lar. wad r frens 4? hahah. and i was waiting 4 sum idiot to cum. and as expected. BUM didnt turn up. ): think it will b the same 2nite. cos will b typical of him to cheong hw..as in laz min? haha. guys jus wun learn their lessons, dont they? lol.

haha. and i'm feeling ok nw. ahaha. in fact. i was ok since fri evening. haha. (: thanks peepz! bt i'm having diarrhoea 2dae. it's lyk wth. weather so cold liao still make mi sick. hais. it's 9.06 nw. i wanna slack till 9.30 and then get back to my stupid OC. haha. and i completed tut 34. call mi pro! haha. alrite. tts all. dis entry is totally crap.

oh well. crap.

2007-01-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

i thought things wld hav worked. apparently, it didnt. i finally....cldnt take it. and if i hadnt moved away...i wld hav disgraced myself wiv another round of tears. yes, tears.

thanks. mr aeroplane.

2007-01-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

jer, press on.
(:

2007-01-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

tell me, why do i feel dis way?

the start of 2007 makes mi feel lyk shit. totally shitty. no1 knows what i'm feeling xcept 4 dearest mok. she's great. we shd hav been in the same sch mokkie. i shd hav stayed on. and nw, i'm feeling so terrible inside. i've lost tt sense of belonging to my class. it's no longer there. trying hard as i may, deep dwn.....i noe, it aint gonna work.

there's jus dis.....barrier sort of thing tt i'm experiencing particularly to sum pple..sad to say, i cldnt find tt feeling back. it's time to blog abt dis man. it's lyk..the closer u get...the more hurting it feels.....furthermore, r we tt close? i mean... i cant pretend tt there's nth wrong animore...it's not as if i was moody or anything...flag dae..movie..stuff. it's a lie if i sae tt i'm ok.

oh well..
tt loneliness is too intense 4 mi 2 bear.

2007-01-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YR!!!

2006 has been an extremely happening yr 4 me, getting to noe loads of new faces both in tjc as well as in mjc. was out at ecp wiv ling ting, ling jen, kelvin as well as ky-ky ydae! and i didnt noe tt lil pugs r scared of fire crackers! yep. started staying over from sat nite...yes, we mugged all the way till sun afternoon....went 4 swimming which totally sucked cos i onli managed to swim lyk 15 laps...hais. but jacuzzi was fun..and we started chatting abt where to go for dinner b4 heading to ecp arn 11 plus at nite...decided to go to tm instead...avoided overly crowded places lyk orchard, esplanade and stuff.. haha. and i bought another pair of flats. i'm loving flats nw. heels r killing me. haha. enuff of 'em. nevertheless...i still wore a nice pair of wedges ydae! hehe. =D

it's simple and elegant.

yeah..and after tt, we went for sauna. kept adding water to make the rm hotter!

well, of course u might wanna consider concentrating on the rm itself rather than my terrible hairstyle and retarded poses. haha.

swimming pics....

yep. here r sum of the ecp pics. it was super crowded. and yes, i mean it. SUPER. we were at bedok jetty cos it was directly facing the esplanade. hah.

fire works from esplanade..it's kinda small!

and these bright red spots r fire works cuming from the ships! awesome!

we played!

that's half a circle...

the other half...

i love this one.

took bacardi...quite nice vodka. 4.8% alcoholic. peach in flavour.
recommended. darn nice.

HAHA. THAT'S ABT IT I TINK.

2006 gav mi a new environment, seeing new faces...meeting pple wiv diff personalities...cuming from diff schs to form cliques...and of course...nt forgetting the old ones....

lingting, 8 yrs wasnt ez. u're irreplacable in my heart.
mok, 5 yrs. oh well. we r lyk bickering 4eva isnt it? haha. HONGKONG 2008! x)
agnes, 10 yrs. super loyal even though evytme ask mi if u hav grown fatter =.=

haha. as 4 the rest........mel, ap, yl, elaine, sx, feli, xy, fiona, wd, 3sa, ali, joanne, june, th...and many more....u guys rawk! =Pp

kors....lio, rubayn, alan... ok. thanks 4 helpin out whenever i'm in need....esp lionel. u're the best.

tjc.
DaClique
qi,leck,fen.

it's nt ez cuming dis far. thanks 4 tolerating mi whenever i'm keeping quiet and nt toking. cos ur fren here has a weird personality. haha. no lar. it jus tt i'm still searching 4 sth precious tt's holding mi back.

sixuan. da jie da. evything on 1. and always distracting mi when i'm tinkin of rubbish. haha. nice.

verena. aiyo. woah. wad shd i sae? seeming quiet? actualli v noisy? online crapper. she's sweet. sumtmes touched by wad she has done 4 mi too. tks!

di hui. big bro lar. told mi a big secret! wahaha. shh! dis fellow. can tok on the phone 4 super long 1. then always v loud. ear pain u noe.

waikit. erm. suan pple 1. m i so suanable? lol. ok. out-going lar. and his classic saying in chinese...从这里进来，就要从这里出去。

xin an. sum fond memories tt i wun 4get.

seb. the taxi guy. cheong cab to pei mi. wad can i sae?

hahah. 2406. frankly speaking, i didnt hav a gd impression when i first got into 24...it was so diff from tk....having 16 girls and 8 guys...whereas back then in tk..it was 16 girls and 24 guys...haha. tts nt my point...cos i thot tt it was a super cheena class......and my chi is limited....haha. i was wondering if we cld get along well or nt initially...haha. it isn't too bad aft all...(:

and i hope tt in 2007, we will really bond well! pls support class outing okay? =D

Mjc.

speaking of mjc...i saw ivan a few daes ago. haha. still tt cartoon face. u're the best ogl lar. haha. hope tt u hav done well 4 ur a levels!

evadne and jenny. woah. wonderful.

aiya. i'm tired. nx tme then continue. got too many 2 post le! hahah.

HAPPY NEW YR!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-27T02:09:00.000+08:00

2006-12-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

merry xmas!

mm..dis yr's xmas...haha..actualli i aint really sure on how i feel abt dis yr's xmas.....it's lyk i swear i didnt noe the cap was loose for the salt cover........hais. wadeva la. who would hav expected accidents to happen? tt half the bottle of salt went in? wadeva. not tt i wanted rite? i was jus shaking the bottle to get the salt out! lol. made mi feel lyk sum GUITLY shit. perhaps i shd hav went 4 my bro's performance ydae! oh ya. joel was dere too. haha.

went to meet lionel earlier in the dae...damn nice. haha. dis is the 4th consecutive yr tt he bought mi xmas present! how sweet! thanks lionel! and cld hav probably met up wiv another fellow...bt didnt in the end. haha. suan le. kinda xpected huh? LoL. so lionel accompanied mi till dob gaut...and was still raining then~ haiyo....and i was super hungry! lunch was at 1 plus...and we settled on sandwiches cos i told him tt dere wld b a feast 4 dinner...so ate damn lil..hais. guessed i ruined the day. oh well. anything la.

photos then.

oh ya. we wanted to buy wine. then i/c check. and ya. on my way hme 2dae, i got chased by a cat probably becos of my black shiny pumps! it was eyeing 'em! hais~ suay!

2006-12-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

THis is my family's xmas party! All my aunts r gr8 cooks! WooHoo!
and i'll show ya wad i mean!

an overview of 1 of the tables....

tts beef i suppose! haah. i dun take beef though.

ok. 3 trays there. the left is fried rice...the other...macaroni and the front....turkey!!!

tts crab rolls! yumyum!!!

soup of the dae...cream of mushrm...and the other....vegetable soup or sth lidat..

SPRING CHICKEN!!!

CURRY! ROAR! ultra spicy!!

ok. turkey again! too delicious! wahahas. =X

pizza! home baked! keke =PpP

OK. do u c onion rings? pasta salad...and fries!!!

tts our ice-cream cake! hahaha. my auntie bought fr swen. tt's lyk the 2nd cake i've eaten in dis wk! OMG!

c! my name! HAHA. X)

and of course, tts the xmas tree! hhaha =D

NOW u noe. i can COOK WELL too! hahaha! =pPp oh ya. i took baroon jus now. kinda tipsy! ahah

2006-12-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS. I JUS WATCHED THE NEWS. IT SAES.." THE HIGHEST RAINFALL IN 75 YEARS! "

and. ya. the rain is estimated to last up to friday. there was a similar 1 in dec, 1978 too. god bless us. dun flood le lar. aiyo. xmas is cuming lar. dun lidat leh.

2006-12-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

hey guys. hahaha. so i went far east wiv leck ydae. and bought my stuff. wao. i spent lyk hundred plus within 3-4 hrs. shit. feeling guilty. hahaha. bt my dad gav it 2 mi 2 buy clothes wad. he himself oso bought la. crocodile sumore. his 1 shirt= my dunno how many pieces la. hahaa. dis is to make mi feel less guilty. well, of course. HAH.

and ya. after shopping, i was abt 2 get hme. the rain was crazy la. totally madness man. i cldnt walk back to ngee ann tt stretch and so...i jus boarded a bus tt came...hahah i didnt even the no. ..after arn 15 mins.. i realised i was at queensway. and then...as i carried on...i saw..clementi and i knew tt gg further will bg mi to bukit merah. so i alighted. took train fr commonwealth back hme. hahaha. retarded man. and i'm freezing today. dis is probably the coldest dae of 2006 bah. hahaha. i'm lyk hibernating at hme. slept at 5 plus am and i cldnt wake up on time cos i was supposed to meet leck.. so didnt meet in the end. haha. joker.

oh ya. i went to visit my darling niece on sunday. darn cute. she's 8 mths old.
show u my cutie =D

CUTE HOR.

and 1 more. she slps in a sarong jus lyk mi. can swing. hohoho. shiok.

haha. onli got 2. tts abt it. kk. gonna blog more abt my new clothes and stuff. they r hanging on my bamboo stick nw. cannot dry leh. poor thing. 1 day liao. still so wet. hais~ rain rain.

b4 i end. here's sth 4 u guys to try. it's optical illusion tt yi liang asked mi 2 try. must try k! especially lionel! haha! =PpPp

Get the code at www.winterrowd.com

2006-12-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

check dis out.

after a dae's hard work...
our dinner! CLAYPOT RICE!!! the charred rice was WOOOOOO!! 独一无二！

b4 the dark sauce was poured...

and....AFTER! c the diff!!

however...we did cum out wiv a conclusion anyway....

mok wrote dis. ERHEM. XD

AGREE?
so 贴切。。

2006-12-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT. jus updated my blogskin. hope u guys will lyk it.
simple. black. white. grey.
uh huh. yeah. sing ur problems out if u r unhappy yeah.
I LOVE MY BLOG.

P.S. super broke. HOW AH? HOW 2 buy xmas presents? tsk. HEADACHE

2006-12-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

PART 2

KK...since i was scanning pics....shun bian scan dis 1 in..been wanting to scan 4 quite sum tme..bt lazy. ahahha. we were on dis outing outside lar..then shun bian took neos~ yep. i tink it's nt bad (:

nevertheless, tt was a v sweet and memorable dae...26 oct'06.
i can remb.haha

oh ya, i 4got to mention tt i bought sth ydae tt i liked v much. it's made of recycled paper...and meaningul. hahaha. gonna add on to the design too~tink i'm giving it out..yep..cos x'mas is cumin! =D

kk, tts abt it. too lazy 2 blog. hah.

2006-12-03T17:01:00.000+08:00

I WAN TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and screw PEIFEN upside dwn!!!!!!!! guess wad she did? she tou pai mi lar!!!! we went orchard ydae.. and then, when we were eatin at cartel, tt idiot confiscated my hp, saying tt she will keep it safely 4 mi (apparently, she's damn afraid tt i will take photos of her and post it)

so i GUAI GUAI surrendered my hp la! and then.....
guess wad i saw on her blog???? oh man!!!! full of my ugly photos! so unglam!!!!! and she still sae,"peIf e n says: they are nt ugly" EEEEEK
CRAP!
then i musnt lose rite???? wahahahhhah. c wad i can dig out..

unglam: 1

k la. i shall b nice. ONLI 1 unglam pic.AHHAHAHAHA.
so here's wad we did ydae lar....

we went orchard and peifen was LATE FOR 54 MINS =.= so i started readin my snow mountain fly fox. and pls, i took 54 mins jus to read 14 pages, HELLO????!!! AND I DUN UNDERSTAND????!!! damned. it's ok. so i waited 4 our dear princess tt was takin her own sweet tme dressin up at hme while i reached lyk 322pm (early). hais. poor thing. went to cathay then intended to msg her where i was...and guess wad stupid thing did i do again?? i sent tt msg to a WRONG PERSON +.+ dumb.

nvm...cos she was late then i wanted her 2 treat mi bb tea. initially, it was supposed to b $1 and then she bargained wiv mi until she wld onli needa treat 50 cents. haha. bt then i didnt hav enuff coins then she had to pay another 20 cents more. uh huh. thanks huh, princess. hah.

kk...we did manage to take sum neos....

nice wad. the decorations.

screwed. dunno wad poses we did.

still screwed lar.

i lyk dis though...

OH YA!!! and i had dis pretty pretty pretty small lil pic! do u noe y i call it SMALL? cos, stupid peifen, she chose photos tt she looked good and mi, ugly. i was tryin to use the pen to point at the 1 tt i lyk and she was lyk a BULL, I CLDNT even go near the screen--pushing me away as far as possible. yes, tts y i cldnt choose. oh jenny, i dun understand, how can u giv in 2 such a BIG BULLY????!!!! ok, so i resulted in lookin ugly, hoho. so unglam. let mi show u how the small pic looks lyk...it's so small till it's SUPER DUPER BLUR. =( bt i lyk it though...

CUTE RIGHT? (: HAH.

2006-11-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

QI, i m no HAMSTER nOR a DOG. WOOF! woof! this is prove.

u took it. byebye.

2006-11-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

i left hme at 10plus am 2dae. was meetin mok! then we went 2 kbox b4 gg 2 study. mind you, i brought dis big bag of bks to return back to the library. and after singing, we went to mug at j8 cos mok was supposedly 2 pass sth 2 her fren at yio chu kang which was lata on changed. and gr8. so we went to j8 to mug. yeah. nt onli was my bag heavy, tt bag full of library bks were heavy as well. i almost died when i went to search 4 tt stupid library at j8. it cldnt b found. then i smsed ppl 4 help. bt the reply was too late. apparently, mok and i went to toa payoh to drop the bks instead. guess wad. yEah. as usual. we got lost and cldnt find tt stupid library...walkin all abt wiv our heavy bks and stuff. HEllo.U noe how big is toa payoh???!! and gr8, my right foot hasnt recovered since tt BBQ dae cos back then in secondary sch, i used to injure it quite often. so nw, it's bad! oh man....y didnt i put on my ankle guard b4 gg out 2dae?! i'm jus so stupid 2 hav 4gotten it. tsk. gotta apply sum medical ointment or sth 2nite. haha.

and to end it off...here's a pic of our kboxing!

my face is soooo WHITE here. cos of the flash and i'm holdin my phone. kinda screwed. bt who cares. hah.

and another 1 here, a BLUE xmas tree at j8! hoho. i saw a pink 1 at new cathay, a green 1 at ngee ann city, a golden 1 at (i cant remb) and 2dae, a BLUE 1! HAHAHA. commendable (:

tts all! ( oh ya. mok 2dae aint really her usual self, she got hysterical sumhow at 8 plus pm i tink ...cos she stole my summation notes and ya, my assessment bk 4 dunno wad purpose then she kept staring at mi. i accidentally hit sum1 lar, thanks ar mok. haha)

2006-11-24T15:26:00.000+08:00

woke up pretty late 2dae. v sian. tt stupid market failure so hard i dun understand. feel lyk swimming bt it's raining all dae long. daclique all gg orchard aft their camp..bt i dun feel lyk gg. so here i m..rotting while studying...hais. damn sian. dunno y..i took 2 hrs plus jus 2 fall aslp laz nite..hais~ and i wonder wad will happen 2nite. oh pls. jus let mi fall aslp and stop tinkin.

2006-11-23T13:27:00.000+08:00

One more moment- Ronin
Don’t take too long to say “I love you” to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
And out of a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain
And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you’ve gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment… with you
Turn away to say good bye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory
And time keep slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what’s wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you’ll be strong

came across dis song a few daes ago and i thot it's so meaningful..it's a sad song wiv tt same melody there...bt touching enuff to send ppl to tears...nt tt i cried but it got me thinking abt sum things..sum pple..sum memories..haha. nice song! cheers to ronin! (: (esp the 1st portion, it makes mi self reflect) yeah. haha..

can any1 provide mi with the music scores of dis song? hah i dun seem 2 b able to find it..pity..

alrite...enuff of being so immersed into tt song..shall tok abt wad happened lately...cos i havent been bloggin properly..my mood has been gg dwn nwadaes and i noe alot of pple hav been trying to cheer mi up....it's lyk family..frenship and stuff. and i made my best fren angry wiv mi bcos i promised 2 call her at 1am and i didnt call back..nt tt i didnt wan 2..bt it's jus tt i cant bring myself to tok 2 any1..sorry waiyin..dun b angry k.....i'm sry. bt i dun mean it..

and i misunderstood sum1 as well cos he didnt tell mi the reasons for a lot of stuff and nw tt he finally revealed..i can onli sae tt i'm sry too..looks lyk i'm so guilty of so much stuff..oh man. sthtmes i jus wish tt i dun exist in dis world. life wld b perfect 4 evy1! nt giving problems to my family and 2 my frens.....hais. kill myself? haha.

and i'm trying 2 find pple to study wiv mi.......my clique (nice la, bt always end up tokin) haha...tk..my clique sum went poly..how 2 study wiv mi? was tinkin of askin my klaz..bt aint tt close enuff to study 2gether...and sum dunno y. keep refusing to study wiv mi. oh man, i need help! bt aniwae, seb is nice though..was msging ydae...then he said, "nx tme can go study 2gether!" haha, how nice. i wonder y sum ppl dislike him though..mayb i was 1 laz tme..bt tt's no longer the case...nice fren 2 hav! (:

and qi was on the phone wiv Y ydae(read her blog). yucks. creepy. i feel so disgusted by him! so MCP! and in case u dunno wad it means...it is MALE CHAUVINISTIC PIG! cant he listen 2 wad others sae?! he aint capable of calling the shots la...ta boleh tahan man. wad a guy.4get it la. jus stay away can le.

enuff of tt. i m waiting 4 1st dec 2 cum. vegetarian food..i'm sick of it...go mac can onli eat fries, apple pie and corn. go kfc can onli eat cheese fries and coconut pie. go mos can onli eat fries and drink ice milk tea. go hawker can onli eat vegetarian beehoon. (mind u, i hav been eating vegetarian beehoon EVY MORNING 4 3 WEEKS oredi) can feel myself getting weaker....cos of low protein intake.........nvm. i can do it. 1 more wk onli mah! haha.

i wan 2 go funan! my memory card stuck in my laptop for dunno how long liao ah. i wan my card back!!! hais. card, y u so small? i cant get u out of it wiv my tongs, my toothpick, my needle and my keys! bcos the memory slot is too small...alamak! how la? sum1 go funan wiv mi! get the experts 2 help!!

decided 2 keep my hair long..nt gonna cut liao..tts so random. haha. and was tokin ydae.....the pic is so much clearer bt the closer it gets 2 clarify stuff...the harder u're gonna continue and 4 nw..i aint havin any ideas at all...mayb i'm becumin afraid...bcos it doesnt seems bright 4 mi from all the disappointment so far...it's lyk i'm so afraid tt i wld b numb bcos of hurt and despair and nt bcos of other reasons ba..yeAh..numb..i dunno. bt mayb it's gd 2 feel dis way. bcos i wun b pinning hopes tt brings mi on a roller coaster ride! yeah, tts abt it i guess.

2006-11-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

hah! guess where am i right nw? hoho. leck's hse!! =D apparently, i was supposed 2 b at batu pahat if nt cos of my sis...haha. then at hme too sian liao. cum and find leck..hey we were supposed 2 b studyin! bt we r lyk tokin, listening to music...watchin tv...and doin evything xcept studying! haha.i feel so guilty. and leck's tempting mi 2 stay overnite here cos of the big big rain! haha, shd i? shd i not?! tempting mi lyk mad lar...u shd hav seen how she's trying hard 2 entice mi 2 stay! damn funny! no wonder y er hem lyks her la! hahaha. she'll kill mi if she c dis...hehe.

2006-11-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

mayb i shd jus leave it dere ba. i dun wanna experience the same thing over again leh..i will always remb how lionel lied 2 mi and fr then on.. i will feel particularly hurt when ppl lie 2 mi. it's lyk a taboo sort of thing..oh man. i so..dun wanna lose my stand! gotta hav faith nw..
easier said than done.

shall study nw.

2006-11-17T03:06:00.000+08:00

it's 2.58am nw. got my ans le.

2006-11-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda in a lousy mood 2dae la. esp nw! tt stupid msn! wads the point of being online and u cant tok 2 any1 at all??!! and i dunno wad the hell i'm tinkin la! y m i takin all the intiatives lyk again? hello? i'm supposed 2 4get! cum on jiahui, 4GET!!!! DAMN

2006-11-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

wow! 2dae...oh man..swimming again..and my arms are hurting badly..cos i swam too many laps and 2mr gg to swim wiv princess. aha. thanks ar. i want 2 tan and sum ppl lyk 2 go swimming at 7pm. =.= hello? tan wad? tan moonlight ar?! LoL. AHA. aniwae..was at mac mugging at 9 jus nw.until lyk 12 plus am...haha. and ya. saw peifen's co pres or sth..then she was so so so so so kan cheong! cos she was dressin lyk...AHAHAH! (: relax! wun elaborate further...

AHa! and ydae was op! tt marks the end or our PW! WOO HOO~ at last! yay! byebye pw! ahahha. and i was jerkin once again la. HAHAHAHA. y lidat?
ok..shall show u sum pics...

these are my groupmates! qiling, fenglin and sebastian! thanks 4 all the hard work and sweat!

and then...we went bugis 2 baibai..it was guan yin niang niang's bdae...sum ppl said it was guanyin mama's bdae..haha..so cute...and then went orchard..oh man...dunno go how many tmes dis wk and laz wk liao lor...then hav 2 go again..sian...bt did manage 2 take sum pics la...

taka xmas tree!

amazing race checkpoint! (:

i found these dolls adorable!

and tts mi and qi at winsland lift!

ok tts it! tired..

2006-11-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

yoz peepz! there is a class outing on 13 nov, nx mon..at ecp. area D (near costa sand) at pit 48. 6pm, be dere! (:

those tt r gg are required 2 pay $8 latest to mi by sun. those nt gg, pls pay $5 (i'm sry still needa pay)

ppl gg:

1) Mr koh
2) Mi (paid)
3) Qi ling
4) pei fen
5) leck (paid)
6)verena (paid)
7) dracus
8) xin an (paid)
9) qi en (paid)
10) ya wen (paid)
11) feng lin (paid)
12) huimin
13) sebastian (paid)
14) xuan yun
15) di hui
16) darren (paid)
17) si xuan (paid)
18) xiang ting (paid)

oh ya..help required! buying food on sun, 12 nov at parkway ...meeting outside parkway giant at 6pm. inform mi if u r cumin 2 help yea..food bought will b brought over 2 si xuan's hse..

list of ppl helping:
1) mi
2)peifen
3) si xuan
4) di hui
5)xuan yun
6)xin an ( to b cfm )

tts abt it la. cya dere! (:

2006-11-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

princess peifen can b a damn gd joker!

peIf e n says:
hhahaha
[[ jiahui`]] says:
u faster update la.
peIf e n says:
y??
peIf e n says:
i publish le
peIf e n says:
u wanna me to tok
peIf e n says:
want me to crop
peIf e n says:
want me to blog
peIf e n says:
i nt guan yin ma with so many hands
[[ jiahui`]] says:
faint
peIf e n says:
n com only have on window one mouse one moniter onekeyboard
[[ jiahui`]] says:
faint
[[ jiahui`]] says:
u're so dead,
[[ jiahui`]] says:
u bring me laughter lyk no1's business.
[[ jiahui`]] says:
i shall blog.
[[ jiahui`]] says:
dis up
[[ jiahui`]] says:
(:

and 1 more:

i m a vampire. i cannot see sun. we shall swim at 7pm. ha.

2006-11-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.

I CANT BELIEVE I WENT SWIMMING WIV PEI FEN 2DAE! (: yay! poor qiling. cannot cum ):
ahaha. but swimming was fun! so i swam 20 laps wiv my stupid spoilt goggles..tt obstructed mi from gg faster cos the water kept seepin in! oh man...gotta get a neew pair! hohoho. and guess wad. i realised tt the swimming pool is a 10 mins walk from my hse! so bai chi! i thot it was far~

uh huh. wanna c sum pics? haha. unfortunately, our princess onli kept lyk 1 nice pic on my phone so i onli hav 1 to show and i happen 2 look lyk damn ugly inside. ok. wadeva. princess peifen, u're the chio-est inside (:

HAHAHAHA! how is it?

oh ya...here's another pic wiv sum kind of playground at the baby pool!

oh ya. then got slide. so we actually went up to slide! whee~

and then..aft swimming...we were tinkin of wad we wanted to makan...and then...we came across dis stall!

Rong xin!

hehes. oh ya. nx tme ani1 wans go swimming, juz jio mi go k..so fun! aha.

juz 2 backtrack...the other dae..was watching covenant. mm. i onli lyk caleb. aha. and i thot tt the show was a mixture of charm and power ranggers i dunno y. aha. here's my movie ticket.

and then..aft watching the movie..i was supposed to cheong hme cos there was dis wedding dinner at orchard and my mum was rushing mi...haha..then mi and sixuan..we were lyk...we took the wrong direction and ended up at orchard and it was too late 4 mi 2 reach hme..so i didnt go...and in the end...we went to eat at the republic foodcourt of wisma..and guess wad...there was dis stupid bing dian..and i ordered dis fruity dunno wad thingie and i requested 2 change the honeydew and longan to kiwi. and it cost mi 1 BUCK to hav an additional SLICE of kiwi added. =.= nonsense. cos it was onli 1 slice of kiwi and it was 1 buck. =.=
and then compare and contrast. sixuan's ice kachang was so much BIGGER! haha.

get my point?

to end it off, here's my fav drink apart from ribena and bb tea! aha.

2006-11-05T01:42:00.000+08:00

mayb u guys shd try as well! fr qi's blog..abit crap..but accurate la..nt at all tmes though.. (:

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 90%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Love and Your SweetheartHere is the analysis:
Your sweetheart is like a big brother to you. He is kind and always takes good care of you. He is a dream boyfriend; gentle and compassionate, he is completely and utterly dedicated to the girl he loves. It's easy to please him because he appreciates everything you do for him. There's no need to worry about changing yourself in any way because he accepts you the way you are. When this type of man fall in love it's going to be deep and quite probably forever.

Is He The One For You?
Success Rate In Relationships: 68%
Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.
You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.

How deep is your love?
Depth: 50%
You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.

How well will you survive in this wild world?
Here is the analysis:
Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need. You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful.

Your Sixth Sense
Your Sixth Sense Score: 73%
You are reasonable and won't get blown by temptations. However, you might miss some great opportunities.

The Thing You Forgot
Here is the analysis:
Selecting this item means you understand things around you well. However, when you want to prove that you are right, you are likely to insist with the words "yes, yes, yes", but don't offer further explanation.

2006-11-04T15:38:00.000+08:00

my absence wld b very much appreciated.

2006-11-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

verena had it half completed on her blog. dis is the lyrics of the whole song..

Say It Isn’t So--Gareth Gates

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find but at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they closed the door behind you
We're so alone and time stands still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
as I wish I'd never found you

Wohoh
How can I be smiling when you go
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles, miles to go
Before I can sail
Before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling
I get miles, miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

and here's another 1 tt i lyk...

是否记得守护天使的游戏
从我抽到你的卡片起
不再是一个人的回忆
或许未来有快乐也有艰辛
我会把你紧抱在怀里
永远不让你为爱哭泣
如果天空只剩最后
一颗闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让幸福为你指引~
总有一天你会看到
~~Guardian Angel~~ 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够~感应~
如果天空只剩最后
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让幸福为你指引~
总有一天你会看到
~~Guardian Angel~~ 降临
那是我的心一直在守护着你
天使它一定能够~感应~

2006-11-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhh!!!! stupid blogger! my whole entry gone! nw i hav 2 retype!!! wads dis man!!!! nvm. hav patience...yoga..zen..uh huh.

alrite. as i was sayin..princess peifen is really princess. as i m supposed 2 take vegetarian food 4 a mth...then we started 2 tok abt food. and then. she sent mi an sms sayin.." FAST FOOD FAT" cool got triple F. and i replied wiv "..." cos i didnt noe how 2 reply. and in the end..guess wad she sent back? " u irritating. waste sms. triple dots oso must sms. tryin 2 fight wiv mi is it. triple dots vs triple f." tts lyk =.= nvm. a lesson learnt. nv tme i send back 6 dots. uh huh.

oh ya. i seriously tink i got deja vu. ydae rite..i felt tt i wld c poh jin hui. and it's so damn zhun can! he appeared not once bt twice in front of mi! oh man. creepy creepy. eee.eeee.

and then. ppl. i'm tellin u. i cook gr8 food! ahah. check dis out:

chef's standard k! ahahha =D who wans 2 try?

waikit was signin contract at taka ydae. so we tagged. and i caught dis glam shot.

i shall name it 他和她的故事...

=)

...recently...i've mastered the art of stoning. ah mok caught dis:

dunno since when too...it's not bad 2 stone sumtmes...no needa tink. juz sit dere and rot.

i'm tryin 2 get myself back. the happy mi.

2006-10-31T22:42:00.000+08:00

the term has ended. and i wld really lyk 2 share how i'm really feelin wiv u guys...stuff tt i find difficult to verbalise...

Qi: u're a great fren! and i'm sayin it from the bottom of my heart..u tend 2 b straight forward most of the tmes...but i noe tt u're sayin it becos u really care and not becos u wanna hurt mi...u often act as the bad person to break terrible stuff 2 mi...but ultimately...i noe tt it's 4 my own gd. i noe...no matter wad, i really hope tt things will work out 2 b really fine 4 u and dorae. dun b lyk mi! bad e.g. haha...must jiayou k! (:

Fen: i didnt noe. u were so concerned abt mi 2 the extent of cryin and worryin 4 mi abt my results...cos u always remained strong and didnt quite show it...i juz wanna giv u a big big hug and thank u. from the bottom of my heart...i can feel it (:

Leck: mm..i dun quite noe how 2 go abt dis...it's lyk...there's sth amiss here...ever since tt incident...and then onwards...i dunno wad 2 do or sae 2 revive it the way tt i wan it 2 b...

verena: i thank u 4 tt promo period. u were a gr8 helper i must admit...but then again...i do miss the funny slpovers at ur hse wiv leck...bt..i dunno...it's lyk things u sae...often strike mi wiv big big blows...it's nt tt i dun wanna feel lyk getting back 2 our frenship wiv leck..bt it's lyk....

kit: hey! u can b nice and mean at tmes..haha. remb 1st dae of sch? eh u treated mi orange juice! aha. and durin tt promo period...thanks 4 deliverin the plate 2 mi...waikit. u're nice.

xin an: 1 big round. back 2 original spot. i didnt noe how 2 react. things were gg on off on off on off...4 u. u didnt share. and finally the chpt is closed. and u hav chosen the most str8 4ward way 2 get it off ur chest at the most unexpected tme when i thot things were gg smoothly. i've listened 2 my heart and i hope tt u hav done so too. no matter wad..we'll still b frens..

2006-10-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

dis entire email...was sent to mi....by my bestie!! oh man...damn nice 2 mi....i almost almost almost...cried!!!

"Impossible: u may think that many things are impossible in life. nothing can solve the problems at home, nothing can help you to get promoted.
But God spell impossible
I M Possible!! nothing is impossible for God.Have faith in Him, for the Lord is always with you!

Matthew 11:28
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

i think i've never told u that i always see u as a very cheerful person. when i first met u in primary school, family problems have been happening for me. im really thankful to know such a cheerful fren like u, that at least i know i have enjoyed myself in school.. that in the midst of my problems, that when some bullied me and dislike me, i enjoyed singing and joking or even sharing stuff with u.. p5 and 6 were my fav yrs in pri school..

right now we are back to be in the same school.. and i can see that u are facing problems too. It is all fated that we can be good frens for so many yrs.. and i know we'll continue to be good frens..

well, u know i dun have good vocab and im not really good at words too. all i can say is that, thanks for being the angel when i need help, and now it is my turn to be your angel.. for whatever that happens.. remember that there is always me to walk through the difficult path with u.
love u lots :) stay strong and jia you okay! i'll be praying for you my fren.."

LING TING. U RAWK MY WORLD UPSIDE DWN!!!!!

juz wanna let u noe tt u r v cheerful too!

c.h.e.r.i.s.h.

2006-10-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

yawns!

i went to pasir ris park 2dae! aha. u noe how much i wanted to fish???!!! then my mum dun let....=(
dun care. nx tme i go! aha. here r juz sum pics tt i took....

aha. fishin in the rain...

hahaha.

tts where u catch prawns!!! OMG! SO COOL!!!

then got stall dere 4 u 2 buy stuff 4 catchin prawns too! got ppl buy nets leh...

AWW..Wanted to RENT!!

and tt's a bait bag! the fishes in it are alive ones...there's an oxygen pump attached to it too yeah...

tts a bag of prawns!!

and finally...........

sum1 caught a fish! ahahah!! (:

in conclusion. i wan 2 fish. catch prawns oso can. ahaha. bt i tink no1 interested. hmmph. nx tme i go myself.

2006-10-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

aha! can u believe it? oh man, i travelled 23 stops to choa chu kang 2dae! cos we went 2 watch rugby! ahaah. was supposed to meet at 850am. hoho. then i had 2 wake up at 7am while i barely had 3 hrs of slp!! ahaha. nvm. cos..used to it le...so not v tired ba...haha. ya lor....and guess wad? i was actualli countin how many stops cck was away fr cityhall...oh man..it was 19 stops...and eta was lyk 47 mins...then i knew tt i was gg 2 b late!!!

wao....and my mum was so crap la! she wanted 2 send mi dere..bt she didnt noe i was gg 2 cck. so she asked 'girl ar..where u gg? i send u dere' and then...i replied 'mummy, cck.' and then she was lyk sayin '4get it la hor. ownself go beta. save petrol' =.=
so bai chi can.

ahah. nvm...i guessed was late 4 lyk...30mins? haha. i dunno. then he was dere. wao...was wonderin how cum so fast...he told mi he woke up at 820am leh. and was still at novena when i was at bishan...chey! yuan lai was daddy fetch can! ahaha...and then we took 190 to pj...bt dunno where 2 alight...ended up lyk took 1 hr to reach pj when it was quite near...ahhaha...nvm...joker! (:
ahaha...actualli the match was not bad lor....but i dunno y he scared i bored...i thought was quite alrite? ahaha...esp the sa match..ahaha. then he got alot of frens there...haha...i was kinda paiseh..bt then...i was starving..haha. then he went 2 buy a drink 4 mi...then aft tt got sum food 4 mi...aha.

then aft tt....we went tm...had my pw and stuff...abit sian...edit non stop 1...ahaah....but shd b almost done le lor....then aft tt met him again....we were walking arn aimlessly....and then suddenly he received this msg sayin tt his mum was at tm too...oh man. then bth of us went on hiding....hoho! then he looked tensed sia!

ahaha then i suggested gg century sq cos got lesser ppl...so we went la...aft i finished buyin my bb tea...ahaha. went to hide in the foodcourt while my mum was cumin 2 pick mi up 4 dinner outside....sat dere and tok...4 arn 50mins plus....then v funny. cos abit weird...u noe tt kind of lyk wanna tok then in the end dunno wad 2 sae tt kind of feelin?? haha. ya lor! wonder if he feels the same way tt i do too....ahaha..then after tt...was lyk 7 plus...my mum reached liao....and luckily i asked him 2 leave lyk 30 secs earlier...cos my mum's car was directly behind...then i cock eye didnt c!!! heng sia!!! if not...2nite...NAG liao...no PEACE...hahaha.....

so we were bth quite heng la..haha. shh! (: things r gg on quite well...haha. yep.

2006-10-28T02:36:00.000+08:00

mi and leck!

nice 2 walk along the beach.....

oh depression.

our bikes!

playin wiv water......

2006-10-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

aha. was too tired 2 blog ydae...yep..shall recall wad happened...ahaha..mm..ydae...went 2 ecp wiv ve, leck and xin an. ahaha. he came unreluctantly cos of darren....got him into the cab and left him wiv us. ahaha. and was weird la...i mean...seriously, i wanted so much 2 leave..yep...

bt things were gg much beta....ahahah....yep..then was ok le i guess...then at nite....si xuan and du hui joined us 4 dinner and stuff...WAO. di hui! crap la...4 the 1st tme in my life...he made mi...ultra...sp--eech--less....evything seemed 2 b paiseh. paiseh. and ultra paiseh. oh man...as i'm bloggin rite nw...i'm still in the 'paiseh' mood. aha. gd. at least i wun b so pre-occupied by mon's stuff...oh no...there it goes again...ahah. alrite. shall avoid mentioning dis part yeah....

yar...then aft dinner...we actualli went 2 shop arn.....took neos! aha. neo was fun! imagine us hiding fr the cam and stuff...oh mama. ahha. and then...went to bugis village....but leck and sx left earlier...leavin mi, di hui,xin an and verena..and then hor. wao! verena halfway dunno disappeared 2 where lor! then we were so kan chiong and we went arn lookin frantically can! in the end. she played a prank on us. wao. 'byebye. enjoy hav fun!' woo....yep. threw us there lor. wao sey verena. we kan chiong leh!!!! ahaha. nvm.
so aft tt...we went 2 search 4 blazer 4 di hui's job...aha. quite tough search cos....all were...not very nice...but in the end...did found 1...not bad...ahaha...it was supposed to cost $49 bucks...bt the auntie gav it 2 us at $45....mm...but the material was dere la...so quite alrite lor...

yep...then it was abt 10 plus...then we boarded the train..and then. guessed wad? i cant believe it lor. i was gg 2 ling ting's hse at bayshore there..and he didnt board his train....oh man...it was late le...then he sent mi 2 her hse...oh my gawd....lyk suddenly...so sweet. i cannot believe it leh. sumore he lives lyk the exact opp end fr bayshore? ahahah. ok. bt i admit i was happy. cos the previous nite....i was hmmph. yep. kinda mad...ahaha...alrite.......shouldnt sae much abt all dis here...yep....show u guys sum photos tt i koped fr verena's frenster...ahaha...enjoy!!!

2006-10-25T20:30:00.000+08:00

LoL. 2dae is a sian sian dae. ahahha. op. screwed. they commented tt i was bouncy thruout the op. ahahah. got meh? i dunno leh. haha. lunch! mm...quite gd food la...sum la viet dunno wad vietnam rest...took the buffet set and was quite gd! ahhaha. gonna visit tt place nx wk. i hope. (:

and then....da clique had to go back 2 sch 4 ogl interview. i was supposed to meet my fren at 5 plus at bugis. guess wad. it was onli 2 plus...and i didnt wan 2 b alone 4 2 hrs +++ tt's lyk..lonely! so i msged...pei mi. and cannot make it. wao sian....evytme cannot make it de lor...guess i shall nt ask liao. it's lyk so...aiya, wadeva. hais. nvm. luckily got ppl pei mi at the laz min...ahaha ke li and ling ting happened 2 b at tm...so i actualli went 2 look 4 em at tm....ahaha. and then aft tt, travel back 2 bugis.

mm. bugis. when i reached bugis...it was pourin la...then i was so drenched....BRRR!! wad a suay dae!!! oh ya. then i saw nicholas again. saw him lyk laz sun, mon and 2dae! tt's lyk..hohoho. so bai chi =.=

nth much exciting 2dae.....ppl r juz takin damn long 2 reply my msges...oh no. how sad. 2mr will b quite jialat 4 mi. 2mr morning see-ing mrs wee..counselling...and then hod wiv mr koh...hohoho. and mayb vp in the afternoon...yep. wish mi luck! i'm clearin it!!! (:

dis sux. op. hav 2 edit again. too sian 2 do tt liao. lata then sae la. tada.

oh ya. there is dis new drink called pepsi gold edition. ahaha. quite nice. go try.

2006-10-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

ahahaha. in the midst of waitin..i shall blog again! dis is 4 animal lovers!!! (:

I've got my hair done at the famous hair salon across the road!

You are too young for my spring chicken meal...

I am still sleepy, hmmm

kongfu fighting. don't even try!

This has got nothing to do with the length of my tongue

My dear, let us celebrate after my face-lift

Didn't she know I won't get any taller?

Is this child yours?

I knew it! You love the bear more than me!

Please papa, don't leave me behind!

mum!

alrite! tts all 4 nw! ahahah. i'm really takin things in my stride! sort out all my thinkings and stuff. nth will bg me dwn man! i'm clearin it 4 sure! 加油！！！（：

2006-10-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

ahaha..more pics...of my klazmates....dis is di hui. er hem. chairman of 2406. OH. WAD DO U TINK HE IS TRYIN 2 DO??? ahahah. remembered the other tme when we studied at the airport. it was so fun. hoho. worth mentionin up till nw. ello, chairman! =)

mm...mi and my ah mok! ahaha. at NLB! we studied so hard!!! but then ling ting MIA. =.=

and i miss this place...

lucky!

and i can nv understand y guys can b so engrossed in their games...

yep...ahahah. gtg kill mosquitoes again. =.= (:

2006-10-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

i'm so HUNGRY and BORED la!!!!! can u imagine having 2 survive onli on milk for the entire day up till nw???? hais. once again, it's mi...alone in the house! sian sian sian...and i've juz changed my blogskin. haha. dis looks much beta! not so sad le. haha. coupled wiv dear diary. ahahah. nice~
dun feel lyk doin op...sian. it's nth but editing lor...and no one's online...i wanna go out 2dae lor!!! then no one pei mi..hais. agnes la got dunno wad treadmill race. alamak la. 14km leh. kaoz. then ah mok..got dunno lyk supa lotsa activities..ydae pool..2dae dunno wad. aiya dunno wad la. and ling ting even beta. evytme not free! da clique..half of em went 4 job hunting. oh man. i gotta study durin the holis la....cant work! no money! =( and i still owe ling ting her bdae treat. i'm gg broke!!!
ahahahahha. feel lyk catching the covenant. tink it's not bad. hahaha. daddy i need $$$$!! ahahah. so bored..nvm mi..i'm juz crappin..
ahahah. wanna c photos? since i'm so bored..ok la...ahaha

yep..one of my favs..hahaha..more to go...

2006-10-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

alot of stuff hav been gg thru my mind lately. wad i ought 2 do...wad i can do..wad i intend 2 sae when i c vp...in ani case--my future. it will be determined nx wk. it's juz so impt. i cant wait. and guess wad. i've started studyin. and i m impressed by myself 2 b able 2 handle all dis. esp laz wk. probably the most horrible wk in my life when i broke dwn dunno how mmany times in my life. it's tme 2 wake up...and not let myself remain in pits animore. there is a sayin tt goes...others may be lookin dwn on u..but the battle is not lost so long as u hav tt trust and confidence tt u r able to do it again. and i mean, again. dis tme round, i'm determined. i can do it. no more hesitation. yes. dis is it. and if u r my fren, support mi.

2006-10-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

2dae is really...really...really... a bad bad dae...nv been so so so bad b4..4 dis entire yr...cos of results...seriously...up till nw...i need another h2 pass...and i'm really counting so much on chem...well..2mr...dun pass tt means game over 4 mi...and i dunno what else i can do..if i kena retained. oh my...retained leh..it's no joke. i'm lyk disappointed wiv sum ppl in sch.....cos they onli made mi feel so terrible until i broke dwn in da toilet...and donald duck targetted mi 4 three tmes durin his lesson..cos i cldnt ans his qn. obviously, i wasnt paying att at all given tt kind of situation tt i was in lar...hais. =(

and i've got a list of ppl 2 thank...4 making my dae.....oh b4 tt...i wanna thank kor. hey rubayn, thanks. i noe u're v concerned abt mi..xie xie. i'll pull it thru...no worries! i mean..at the worst...haha. ya.

and...

in the evening....this gp of ppl really made my dae...cos they had a SURPRISE 4 mi. leck was sayin..the toilet upstairs was faulty...and i went in. then i was wondering, " EH, I THOT TOILET FAULTY? how cum nth wrong? " haha. and when i went into the rm. mm. my intuition...oops! i saw a familiar figure there...reactn: slam da door. stoned outside 4 3 secs and came back in. oh my..wad a surprise! hahaha...ppl...thank u man...i noe tt u guys r trying ur best 2 console mi.....and i'm really really really glad 2 hav u ppl arn...hhaha....and i wanna acknowledge them for being such nice ppl!!! oh well...leck, verena, darren..and xin an...谢谢！(:

i'll b strong!!! =P no worries! (:

2006-10-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

gr8. inspired by leck 2 blog. wow..almost done wiv promos huh...left chem. damned. bad....lyk dunno wad. esp ydae...i went 2 stone at da playgrd 4 lyk more than an hr...sat dere doin nth..at nite.worse. tt stupid 6 countries cldnt get into my head...and was so frustrated. and yes. quarrelled wiv my mum 2dae! she scolded mi 4 not leaving da hse early..cos she wanted 2 fetch mi 2 sch..then aft tt go elsewhere...then i refused 2 step out of my hse. cos. i cldnt finish studying...oh man...wads worse is tt...yea. my sis...depression..my father..not in sg. and 2dae is mooncake festival. shdnt da whole family b 2gether? oh ya. 2dae is their weddin anniversary too...hais...wadeva ba...

and yeap.
gotta get myself mentally prepared! cos sum1 told mi sth 2dae.
to leck: hey chio bu! u're not onli pretty and u hav nice vocals too! (: it's true!
to myself: dun tink so much. go and slp. haha.

bb.

2006-09-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. 1 whole post for my mei, jiahui. Something that happened MINUTES AGO. -.-"

Ms BHB : U sux
Me : as much as u do
Ms BHB : No lor.. as u all know, I'm well known for being SWEET KIND and DEMURE.
Ms BHB : orh.. haha thank you ar..*I don't know what she's thanking*
Me : *fainted*

If I'm lame, u're lame + bhb la hor... buey tahan haha

[ ãh BàyÑ ] | 10:39 PM | Comment(s)

yeap. stupid rubayn goh zhi rong. (ahaha, name still sound lyk dog. AHAHA WOOF! WOOF!)damn funny. and yes. u bhb freak too! and u ultimate lamer too. tok bad abt mi and made mi looked stupid too! tme to take revenge! oh ya. and thanks la! i was muggin lyk siao tt dae and he told mi he gg bbq and marinating chicken =.=

ahaha. ok enuff abt him. ahaha spent da nite at airport wiv dihui, leck, verena, darren and xin an..even though he nv stay over..but tt's nt da pt! ahaha. ql was supposedly to b w us but she ps mi..wao crap. 1st person tt i saw wad darren.. irritating he tried 2 bluff mi! hmmph. luckily chubb and mich were at starbucks. ahaha. and yar. leck was late. i didnt noe wad 2 do cos i didnt want 2 go over and stuff. aiya...damn weird. but nvm. it's all over.

ahaha. but the exciting part was at 3 am plus plus...haha..we were playing hide and seek at da airport. and then darren and verena cldnt find us 4 so long! dumb game! but fun!!! and then...da 5 of us were lyk lazy...so we went 2 get tt trolley to put our bags on..and then i stood on top of it..then initially darren pushed mi...and he went gg in cicles...wao. GIddy! felt lyk i was on pepsi (escape)..then lata dihui took over! so fun...u noe he was gg fast! wow! then got tt coolin effect dere! haha..thanks 2 em..really enjoyed myself...
and yar. di hui. oh man! wad can i sae? he's really 1 gd brother man! so much so tt mi and leck were beggin if we cld call him kor or sth. it has been ages since i've laz praised sum1...but di hui! he's really damn damn damn damn damn damn (ok uncountable) NICE! sum1 tt i can really pour my sorrows 2..and i noe he tries hard 2 help mi wiv my problems. damn nice. i juz wanna sae thank u 2 him! and on da laz note...di hui U RAWK!! and i wish u all da best 4 u and ur .. =)

2006-09-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

if onli he's n**. lyk wad qi said. aft seeing wad happened in sch 2dae abt qi..mm. dejected sia. too dejected 4 words...cant describe..n** wld b sweet...fun..loving..nice...v ti tie tt kind u noe? wao so cool. but then it's nv gonna happen 2 mi. i knew it. bcos. i've lost da battle rite fr da start. nw teach mi how. insensitive creatures. pissed off. wadeva!

2006-09-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

waka. congrats 2 mr rubayn. i'm so gonna blog abt him.

THIS IS A TRUE STORY TT HAPPENED A COUPLE OF MINS AGO.
mi: eh kor i got red eye.
hotdog: orh. ok i noe how 2 help u.....use adobe photoshop.
mi:huh?
hotdog: red eye reduction.
mi: =.=

yar. end. woo. ok got mood 2 study. HEELLLO CLIT. here i cum!!!! (=
orh ya. 2dae did sth stupid. i msg wrong person again. and i sent 2 HIM. walao! well done man. and i was wonderin y my fren took so long 2 reply. end up..i sent wrongly..walao. bai chi x3. orh ya. i had another dream. wakaka. y do i keep dreamin? y my brain must still work while i'm slpin? it shd b restin! aiyo. no wonder wake up liao still slpy slpy 1. tsk tsk. hahas. but i hope. dreams r lyk reality! haaha. shut up. ok. bb. i go study liao. (:

2006-09-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

i'm been a fool. 关怀, 安慰 ,陪伴, 鼓励. there arent. from ani1. my clique. my guardian angel lio. even others. 我依然想哭..guess tt phrase didnt help much..empty talk.. emptiness inside mi..TERRIBLE. ): ): ):

是否了解我内心矛盾的对话
你板着脸孔不屑的对着我看
我的视线没勇气只好面对冷冰冰的地板
这就是你这就是我我们之间的互动
我好想逃我好想躲进一个洞
我需要真正了解我的人为我进行解救

kill mi.

2006-09-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

u noe wad. sumtmes. i wish i can b a detective. how cum sum ppl noe abt my secret when i nv tell them? uh huh. tell mi..who did it? i promise i wun b angry. i m juz curious ma. nvm la. suan le. i cant stop it either.

haha. ya lor. fri nite. got dis weirdo called mi. arlo? remb mi? i was da one wiv so and so at pp..then u saw mi..remb ma? haha. mm. wanna b frens? ahaha. yar, tt was wad he said. i was lyk HUH? orh. yea. i remb..then he asked again. "i hope 2 noe ya beta..cos i've heard of u from so and so..and i tink u're ..(aha. sry. cannot disclose so much) " then i was lyk. orh. thanks...then he went " so how..can we b frens?" kaoz. i didnt wan la. i thot was so weird cos i didnt noe him at all tt type. lyk totally strangers. then i went.." orh..haha. mm.. c how..haah..mon got sch..cya arn in sch..or sth lidat " haha. cos i thot it wld b really mean of mi 2 sae NO la. haha. gimme 100 bucks. i wun do it. not tt kind of person...haha. but then wao..2dae got sch leh...quite jialat. 2dae maths period tt tme went toilet...wao..then saw him if da who and who. then he smiled at mi plus abit da paiseh look. CRAP! i looked. stared. stoned abit. and walked away. wakaka. lame la. but then. mm. he's seriously nt bad. but i'm not really affected by him leh. i c him i hav tt wan 2 laugh feelin onli..haha. so bad. how? dunno how. sia la..i'm sry..i dun tink i hav tt feelin u wan mi 2 hav...sry..

i feel stupid. it's lyk dis lyk mi i dun lyk. sumore not bad. and it's lyk i'm goin 4 sumthing else tt i noe..i cant pin much hopes on..well...as far as i can c..v difficult 2 carry on or sth lidat. cos.haha. hard lor. and xiang ting keeps buggin mi on who is it. wao. until TODAY. waikit tried 2 helped mi handle her. haha. cos evy1 in da rm at tt tme knew xcept her. wao. cld c fr their faces. wan 2 laugh but cannot laugh. ahaha. damn scary. but fun! haha. but aniwae. my intuition tells mi tt he doesnt lyks mi. haha. i m so so direct. but tts wad i feel. mm. but wad can i do? NTH. haha. shdnt hav said it perhaps? sum1 juz help mi analyse wad i'm tinkin and wad he's tinkin too! lionel help!!!! u're da ONE and ONLI stupid idiot tt noes mi DAMN DAMN WELL. and i miss u..my guardian angel!!! (:

hahaha. stupid calvin tan. take knife chop him. ahah. can ask leck wad happened. wao sey!!! calvin tan. no wonder he noes pple lyk how ee and his bro.

2006-09-06T15:58:00.000+08:00

i came 2 noe of sth tt i shdnt hav access 2. struck mi pretty hard i suppose. studying at ling ting's hse nw..nw break tme...feel lyk takin a short break..haha cos juz completed mac series! oh haha. so proud of myself. oh well. guess i shdnt sink in deeper..cos will end up getting hurt onli...haha. apparently..previously...mm. haha. no la. juz pretty new situation ba. nv experience b4.diff from others.. but ling ting analyse lotsa stuff 4 mi..wads rite and wads not. dun wanna pin high hopes on anything ba. i'll try hard not 2 tink of anything. cant let my emotions and stuff control mi..as in take full control..juz lyk u noe energy's new song? ai shi kong. haha. yea. cos. i tink i sort of noe wad 2 do nx. oh man! y shd i make things difficult 4 myself?? haha. i miss tk. 2dae b4 gg ling ting's hse...went pp..2 dapao mac breakfast and bb tea =) bb tea seems 2 cure mi...whenever i'm down. haah. got tt effect dere ba. haha. so if u c tt i'm upset, juz buy mi bb tea =)) oh and ya...saw leslie! crap! i was wearing mugger clothes la..kaoz...haha. nvm. =)

haha. k la. gtg. tt gal bugging mi 2 study again.

2006-09-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

didnt blogged 4 quite long le. cos. no mood. new hse undergoing so much renovation. cos we moved in b4 we cld renovate cos of owner-buyer dunno wad idiotic agreement. hais. made mi ''toiletless" for so long la...sian....cos cement havent dried and stuff...LOL. kinda. ridiculous.
haha. dere was chem early dis morning...hoho. i was late...lyk always...haha..and aft tt was pw. sian sian sian. was rushin thru pw ydae nite until almost 4am. and yes. i woke up lyk 715am? haha. god bless. i tink i'm dying of fatigue sooner or lata...haha. and wad am i doin nw? haha. blogging. LoL. haha. happened 2 read dis story of yukiko online...long story...but pretty sad endin in the end....u guys shd read da story..till da end..endin pretty sad. but touching...
and as 4 mi...nth much 2 add on. he asked mi wad do i tink. oh well. i guess. i need 2 noe more on wad he's tinkin ba. i cant decide on anything as yet. but dunno if i'm feelin moody nw or wad aft readin da story of yukiko ba...i feel tt..things arent lookin as bright as wad others seem 2 b tinkin. i tink i need assurance of whatever tt is going on..shd i sae it as being bu ta shi? haha. aniwae verena sae my xing qing is fan fu wu chang one la. haha. i shd b fine aft i wake up 2mr morning. keke. oh ya. heard sth from leck tt caused a lil disappointment in mi 2dae. shd hav told mi earlier, gal. hais nvm..

alrite...here it goes....the story of yukiko....

Yukiko

2006-09-02T03:42:00.000+08:00

feelin happi. really!!!
HIM: je serai toujours autour de toi et tu ne pleuras jamais
ME: prometto che sarò là per voi

cos..so sweet! i tink i cant slp 2nite. hahas =D

2006-08-30T20:13:00.000+08:00

wow! 2dae! exciting!!! and scary and anxious and happy!! hahhahahah =D and yes. he finally got my prez. haha. it was dumped into his bag. haha. =) he didnt noe until he was told. wao! so blur leh. ahah. typical him?! oops! =x thanx 2 leck and xuan. haha. ate lunch 2 gether. and i wasnt even told tt he was cumin! and i was lyk..HUH???? my gosh! imagine! so paiseh...... ... ... didnt noe wad 2 sae thruout yea. haha. but nvm. over le! =) and oh ya. i was lyk pulling xuan all da way dere...then i said i scared. our dearest da jie da was lyk so loud la! she said " scared wad??!!! " wao..malu until cannot!!! cos leck was rite in front and she claimed tt she heard it..OH NO!!

aniwae. was at bugis. gotta shop 4 teachers' dae prez.. and yes. we bought dis set of girlie stuff 4 ms fung...cos she looks lyk she uses em..gel 4 himbo...er...eye mask 4 xu lao shi..and leck bought a red glass cup 4 ms ho. haha. i didnt lyk da rest of da tchers...so i didnt buy 4 em! haha. mean rite. i will onli buy 4 tchers tt i lyk la...haha. as in..who wun, yea? =P and when i was at bugis..guess who i saw? haha. i saw jing huang on da bus...he's in tpjc nw...and i saw dis bunch of mjc gals from afar! yes! and it was sabby poo. hannah. and our dearest melanie! haha! she claimed tt she had a dream ydae nite! and guess wad? she came up wiv this weird thingie saying tt she dreamt of us meeting at da tkss.tkgs. fence! wao..and da nx thing was...she saw mi! oh my! tt's lyk...qiao!!! hoho =Pp

mm. 2mr is teachers' dae. seriously deciding if i shd go back. cos ms goh is leaving at da end of dis yr...if i dun go back...she will b gone...but dis damn tjc. dunno wads wrong la! how cum got lessons??? sch's gonna end onli at 1130am! my oh my....cRAP! and 2mr got chem tut at 4pm! kinda rush man...haha. and i wanna study wiv leck b4 tt..oh! how? alamak. i m still hesitating la...and i wanted 2 wear my tk uni back 2 tk. guess wad? my mum said tt she had thrown all my uni away! CoOL! didnt ask mi! -.- how cld she?! hais. wad can i do? suan le lor...=( nx tme go back tk buy another set! wakakaka! =P then if she c tt..she's gonna sae tt i'm wasting $$$ again! nag nag nag! ahahaa.. nvm. i happy can liao. ahaha. =)

woa! chem is making mi go insane man! and so is he! i'm so distracted! but things r seriously much beta nw. even though he is still on da washing machine mode. ahaha. washing machine! heehees. CrAp! gtg! mugging!!! =D