Tuesday, January 30, 2007
I slept lyk a PIG. lyk real pig. argh. wiv nth accomplished. yay! no needa slp 2nite le. i slept lyk all the way. until nw and it's almost 11pm. woohoo and pple are gg to slp. was lyin on my bed reading tt idiotic chem equi when my eyes gav its way. ahah. and wads worse, my hair was wet. yuck. i hate to slp wiv wet hair. it's kinda boring 2dae wiv nth much to blog abt. and i'm kinda disappointed nt being able to catch tt movie so soon. it's lyk on daes when i'm free, he's nt. on daes when he's free, i'm NOT. YUCK. y lidat lar. ): and my mummy la! aiyo i fixed evything liao then cum and book me. =.=
and i wanna go CHINATOWN!!! how can u call a CNY a CNY when u're not gg to chinatown to at least take a walk? haha. i go evy yr 4 ur info if u're unaware. ahahah. miss tt ice-cream stall and my MUAJI lar. I CANT WAIT 4 CNY! i wan HONGBAO!!! HOHO x)
WHEE! another month passed! time flies! tts gd 4 me! at least for the 1st 2 months yeah. another mth of observation and i'm over and done with! YAY! it's really scary to b observed. and trust me, u wldnt like it. i'm happy wiv my chem. at least, my efforts werent put to waste. however, hais there's always a HOWEVER. my maths! wth. DE and vectors u yucky DE and vectors. and i tink i seriously hav nt much affinity in maths. i studied and practised so damn hard. was confident walkin in, and then uh huh, came out wiv this WTH look on my face when it's time to collect the paper. COS, I DUNNO HOW 2 DO AND I DIDNT COMPLETE IT! ARGH! and i tink i will get lyk 5/25? god, tt's HORRIBLE. and it's counted. fiak, how can i get such grades? i'm being observed, mind u! tink will die until v cham. and i havent gotten back my econs. it's damn scary. hais, i'm worried. ): ): ):
oh ya. there's dis angel and mortal game gg on! so cool. cos i've got a yandao called anavil. heard tt he's got thai blood in him. and he's a pageant for O1! and i heard abt how he tried helping tt girl on stage. oh boy, tts so sweet. i will melt if sum1 does tt for me too! i mean, who wun? haha. so cool. thai.lyk KINARA. KIN, hurry back! havent seen u for 3 yrs leh! and wads more, he replied on tt dae itself! wah! i'm impressed wiv tt speed. bt peifen kept complaining tt it's a boring reply. hahah. yandao = boring? erm, lionel if i consider u as yandao. hoho. then tt makes u boring! =X gd analogy i've got huh. aiya. and i cant wait to find out my ANGEL. heard tt it's a J1. ahah. angel, dun b a lazy 1 alrite? cos i wan my letter! HAHA!
and i was up at my ah ma's hse ydae. she was having an asthma. hais. i hope she's feeling better 2dae. (: then, as usual, i started playing wiv yanqi! haha, she's so cute! and i was carrying her in my attempt to take photos wiv her. and she tried to grab my phone! tt xplains y the photos wiv mi inside r kinda screwed. i'll show ya!
HAHA. it's amazing how fast babies grow up!
PRINCESS PEIFEN. i found this in her toys set. i tink it suits u. it's a PINK HEART SHAPED COMB! HOHO. x)
haha. yanqi in her SARONG!
adorable hor? she loves chuckling to herself as she mummbles some baby languages tt i cant make anything out of it. haha. oh ya. u noe gong xi fa cai? she noes how to do the GONG XI FA CAI ACTION! damn cute! tink she will get alot of hongbao!
haha. tts abt it. i go hav my dinner nw. it's close to 11. oh my, i dun wanna get fat! =D
deardiary.
9:49 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
S.H.E'S CONCERT! 270107
PHOTOS 1ST. i'm tired. check out the time nw.
THE START.
Fahrenheit.
SELINA.
erm. yeah. i'm too lazy to upload more photos. i've got alot more. u may ask from me if u wan more. OH YA. i saw EVADNE LAR. ahahha. like evytme coincidental. hahah. and tt stupid darren called when the concert started =.=
aiya. the concert ended at 11 plus. and was jammed like siao la.
indoor was S.H.E outdoor stadium was an ongoing soccer match. the whole kallang was flooded wiv pple.
and wads nx? my sis and i cldnt get hme. for goodness sake. we cldnt even flag 4 a cab. all the cars were oredi taken up. and then, my dad, being my dad, he didnt pick up my calls. left w/o any choice, my sis and i WALKED home reluctantly. WALKED. heng i was wearing flats. phew! cos i kinda expected it. ahah. bt still, i wldnt mind getting to see S.H.E! they're gr8! i LOVE THEM! YIPEE! their songs..had indeed touched the hearts of many others...i remb the 1st tme listening to them was in p6...with their debut..lian ren wei man...and up till nw..wo men zhe me le...aha. and nt forgetting mo li. it makes mi full of gan chu seeing them sing. hahaha. and i noe tt joining li wei song's sch of music wldnt b a wrong choice! yipee! ok. i gtg.
so tired.
fiak. TI. gosh. i cant decide!
deardiary.
1:33 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
what if i collapse in sch 2mr? oh well. i seriously feel damn unwell. was having diarrhoea since ydae and cough. and nw, my fever is back. yes, for the third time. i shd hav listened to my dad not to swim. and ya. my flu is on its way. i can feel it. ):
i wasnt paying att durin mr ang's xtra make up lesson. the atmosphere was totally wrong. plus the fact tt i was moody. aiya. evything's so wrong.
deardiary.
9:03 PM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
there's swimming 2mr! yay! 2dae.damn suay. got gastric cos they didnt wanna hav an early dinner 2dae! and when i got hme, i got diarrhoea! aiyo! and my mum is hurrying mi to take my medicine. bt sumhow, i jus hate the sight of it. so wad nw? maths undone. ok or rather, i hav 6 more qns to go. and our mr rubayn wans songs! and i told him i'm into EMO nwadaes so i wan EMO songs. and then he said, "how abt christina's hurt?" then i went, " oh, tt song too sad. dun wan." then he said, " EH U SUCK. i thot EMO songs r supposed to b sad?" haha. and yeah. tts abt it. i'm blogging nonsense again.
er ya. and my mama bought roses and placed it on my study table. according to her, she says tt girls rm shd hav flowers =.= tts wad happens when u hav a mum who loves flowers. and er ya. my daddy, my uncles, aunties, and ah gong and my sis are gg china nx month. win liao lor. my sis nv fails to not enjoy life! and it's freezing there! actualli they r gg to our hmetown in fujian. the last tme i went dere was during p3..if i'm nt wrong. and i dun get to go! ARGH! nvm. i'll b gg overseas wiv ah mok and ms indian nx yr! YIPEE! so exciting! hehe. a trip w/o parents..damn COOL!
deardiary.
9:13 PM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
YIPEE! I M GG TO S.H.E'S CONCERT DIS SAT!!! and 4 ur info, my sis jus bought the same PINK phone as peifen. OMG! i got a shock! stunned.
AHAHHAHAHAH. SO COOL. i'm so gonna clear out my sat 4 S.H.E'S concert! =X
i tink i gonna change phone soon. i'm earning bucks thru tut too! woot! haha. my own money (:
and as 4 nw. i gonna make sure i'll pass all my tests! vectors! c'mon! all things r difficult b4 they r easy, arent they? haha. actually, i'm trying to psycho myself. =X so high 2dae. so happy. YIPEE!!! =D
and was talking to our princess thru the webcam. so funny. can c the sparks thru my comp. and yar. my comp got invaded by dis virus rontokbro! ARGH. tt xplains its lagging =.=
and i gotta update cos princess is complaining tt my blog is stagnant. aiyo. bt i aint got anything interesting to blog abt when i'm sick and i'm at hme. YAR. 4 ur info, i didnt even step out of my hse at all for the whole dae. it's so cold outside! HAHA. i will on sat! SHE concert! OMG! then sun got SHE autograph session at J8. OH fiak. i dun tink i can make it 4 the sun 1. cos i'm teaching tut ok. haha. tt makes mi a tcher. oh no. sounds so old. and i'm singing angela chang's meng li hua nw. it sounds so much lyk mo li hua. ahha. i lyk the chorus. (: and when i've earned enuff bucks, i shall join dis music class at JUZMUSIC. and when i've completely mastered the techniques, i shall teach! hohoho. ah mok cum join mi sing k! lets go 4 vocal training. cos nelson kwei 1 nt powerful enuff. wahaha.. so mean =x
SHIT. havent touched my chem supplementary qns! so dead lar. tt vectors' fault. made mi stuck 4 so long. ARGH. nvm. i'm so high 2dae. hohooo. actualli u'll noe when i'm high. cos when i'm high. i blog abt nth bt crap. and dis entry is tokin abt nth except S.H.E and me earning money. haha.
and i jus heck my probs nw. cos sum1 jus added dis BIG FAT problem on me. bt tt sum1 is the best guy fren i ever had. hey u, tt sum1. u noe who i'm tokin abt. i really dun noe wad 2 do. at least, it isnt tme to dabble in such stuff. i cant bg myself into it cos u noe WHY. and i noe u're v concerned abt mi. afterall..i noe it's a long long way..since sec2..mm. i really appreciate tt thought dere..i mean...it has sought of becuming more and more indispensable these days.. bt it doesnt mean tt it is gg tt way..u get mi? u're my NO.1 best guy buddy and the most YANDAO fren i ever had, ok? haha. praise u abit =X u rawk! hey buddy, tc alrite? dun fall sick lyk mi! all the best 4 ur uncum basketball comp! dun hurt urself again alrite? =Pp jiayou!
tts all 4 nw. shall blog mayb 2mr? haha. flyers! whee. byebye.
deardiary.
10:45 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
i'm sick. from a minor sore throat to a really serious 1. apparently, i lost my voice ydae becos of tt 6 peanut butter cookies tt i hav eaten. wow. and i didnt even realised i was having fever until i went to c a doctor. =.= tts so, me.
even though i was sick, i still went to batu pahat cos i wanna noe how serious was the flooding conditions over there. it is extremely flooded. there was dis soccer field which was converted into a mini lake when i saw pple rolling boats jus to get across it. i pity the pple dere. hais. and the rain sets in continuously... shall show u sum pictures taken from the car...u'll get wad i mean...
it's still raining! ):
it takes 4-5 hrs to reach batu pahat from sg...and on my way there, many things came across my mind..maybe it's becos of tt weather...and when the rain sets in at arn 5 plus.....my fever..and sore throat..and voice...hais..
have u ever wondered wads wrong wiv me for the past few weeks? well, it's time to reveal then.
sch sucks. life sucks. and amidst the high level of stress i'm getting, i'm facing problems in other aspects as well. i'm hating my life.
the pple arn me...they dun understand. they dun c it, they dun feel it. and even if they hav felt sth was wrong wiv mi...they wld choose not to mention it. i'm so damn unhappy. to think tt pple thought i blew up 4 sum trivial matters. in any case...qn is, wld i? 4 a small matter?
many a times...i really do hav a lot to say....and i often kept quiet....i dint wan anything to turn sour and stuff....so evything wld go bottled up inside mi..it wasnt an overnite kinda of thing. it existed quite sum time ago...jus tt i hav chosen to avoid tt topic. sorry, i cant do dis anymore...it's overwhelming!
if u hav known mi from my secondary sch..u wld hav realised tt drastic change in me....at least...not a facade...
i noe...i didnt do well 4 my promos...and i get condemned 4 it as well. it's lyk..they feel tt i cant do it tt kind of thing.....i hav heard enuff of those hurtful things tt pple sae.....for e.g...during a maths tut in class...." How u noe is lyk dis? i tink u anyhow sae." lyk hello? how abt during a chi tut..." dun bother asking her....she doesnt noes..." or even when i said tt i hav really completed studying 4 chem....pple dun believe mi....." huh? u finished studying?"..."ya...completed evything and read thru evything once more on sun..." ..."oh.....reading thru is not the same as revision" lyk hello? i hav started way b4 hand.... u noe wad i mean.. it's so hurtin! and even if i were 2 b despised upon...u dun hav to say it to me face to face rite? damn, it's so upsetting cuming from her.
hah. dis few wks of sch...was living lyk hell. and when the ogl issue sets in...seeing pple arn me getting crazy over their ogms.......where was i? nowhere. and i'm hearing so much abt them............4 wad? i dunno them! and the fact tt i cldnt b an ogl cos of results.........
so much fun had been added to their lives recently.....i'm happy 4 them and yet....i'm feeling so detached. wads the point of havin a clique when u feel tt u r actualli out of it? and when ppl can pretend tt nth's wrong wiv it...and live on and pretend tt evything's fine? oh well, i aint tt type of person. i cant do dis.
y r my words doubted when it's true? when i heard fr ch telling mi abt wei? wad wld i gain from lyin? cant u jus believe mi? it's such a joke tt u dun.
and when i'm facing so unhappy....i aint able to share it..and when i'm really sick...no1 bothers.......xcept waiyin. i was waiting 4 dis particular sms since ydae....bt it didnt came.......and the thot of him lingers on 4 i dunno wad reasons.......when i noe i'm standing no where in his heart..cos i was nt tt special, lyk wad he said. and i wanted to destress aft all tt tests b4 moving on........and 4 sum reasons, i cant. and when i'm taking all tt initiatives again..........i cldnt understand y my heart works dis way when i noe he wldnt b dere..
i'm hating life. amidst the crowd.......
i've lost myself.
i'm nt gonna put on tt facade anymore. it's time to settle dwn and tink abt it seriously.
deardiary.
8:03 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
u noe wad? organic chem is seriously driving mi crazy. CRAZY SHIT. was listening to prefect 10 since 12 plus and it's lyk 8 plus nw and i'm still nt done wiv memorising. and hello? i thought i memorised lyk dunno how many times during the holis? gawd. my brain. shitty.
there's chem tut 2mr! oh no. havent practised enuff yet! argh! i need more time! y is the test nx wk lar? cant it b lyk the wk aft or sth? cos i've got econs test on thurs too! it's lyk all cramped up 2gether tt kind of thing. hais. it's always lyk dis lar hor.
was online ydae nite. it's sat nite. haha. and so lil pple online...yucks. haha. so i spent my tme toking to rubayn, verena and keeyann. haha. rubayn's saying tt he's got tt cranes- grain community proj or sth. ahaha. isnt tt the same as tj? oh man. the whole world is doin tt. and haha. verena. was toking to me abt how humans originate? oh man. and she said she's gonna invent sth or wadeva. i 4got. damn lame. my brain went dead ydae lar. so i was practically slacking on a sat nite. ahaha. tt's usual lar. and i'm bloggin crap nw as far u can c. haaha. and how abt keeyann? haha. abit more interesting. i'm sure she has a bf or wad lor. and she refused to say anything. eeyeer. share lar. wad r frens 4? hahah. and i was waiting 4 sum idiot to cum. and as expected. BUM didnt turn up. ): think it will b the same 2nite. cos will b typical of him to cheong hw..as in laz min? haha. guys jus wun learn their lessons, dont they? lol.
haha. and i'm feeling ok nw. ahaha. in fact. i was ok since fri evening. haha. (: thanks peepz! bt i'm having diarrhoea 2dae. it's lyk wth. weather so cold liao still make mi sick. hais. it's 9.06 nw. i wanna slack till 9.30 and then get back to my stupid OC. haha. and i completed tut 34. call mi pro! haha. alrite. tts all. dis entry is totally crap.
oh well. crap.
deardiary.
8:56 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
i thought things wld hav worked. apparently, it didnt. i finally....cldnt take it. and if i hadnt moved away...i wld hav disgraced myself wiv another round of tears. yes, tears.
thanks. mr aeroplane.
deardiary.
10:39 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
jer, press on.
(:
deardiary.
8:40 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
tell me, why do i feel dis way?
the start of 2007 makes mi feel lyk shit. totally shitty. no1 knows what i'm feeling xcept 4 dearest mok. she's great. we shd hav been in the same sch mokkie. i shd hav stayed on. and nw, i'm feeling so terrible inside. i've lost tt sense of belonging to my class. it's no longer there. trying hard as i may, deep dwn.....i noe, it aint gonna work.
there's jus dis.....barrier sort of thing tt i'm experiencing particularly to sum pple..sad to say, i cldnt find tt feeling back. it's time to blog abt dis man. it's lyk..the closer u get...the more hurting it feels.....furthermore, r we tt close? i mean... i cant pretend tt there's nth wrong animore...it's not as if i was moody or anything...flag dae..movie..stuff. it's a lie if i sae tt i'm ok.
oh well..
tt loneliness is too intense 4 mi 2 bear.
deardiary.
11:22 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007
HAPPY NEW YR!!!
2006 has been an extremely happening yr 4 me, getting to noe loads of new faces both in tjc as well as in mjc. was out at ecp wiv ling ting, ling jen, kelvin as well as ky-ky ydae! and i didnt noe tt lil pugs r scared of fire crackers! yep. started staying over from sat nite...yes, we mugged all the way till sun afternoon....went 4 swimming which totally sucked cos i onli managed to swim lyk 15 laps...hais. but jacuzzi was fun..and we started chatting abt where to go for dinner b4 heading to ecp arn 11 plus at nite...decided to go to tm instead...avoided overly crowded places lyk orchard, esplanade and stuff.. haha. and i bought another pair of flats. i'm loving flats nw. heels r killing me. haha. enuff of 'em. nevertheless...i still wore a nice pair of wedges ydae! hehe. =D
it's simple and elegant.
yeah..and after tt, we went for sauna. kept adding water to make the rm hotter!
well, of course u might wanna consider concentrating on the rm itself rather than my terrible hairstyle and retarded poses. haha.
swimming pics....
yep. here r sum of the ecp pics. it was super crowded. and yes, i mean it. SUPER. we were at bedok jetty cos it was directly facing the esplanade. hah.
fire works from esplanade..it's kinda small!
and these bright red spots r fire works cuming from the ships! awesome!
we played!
that's half a circle...
the other half...
i love this one.
took bacardi...quite nice vodka. 4.8% alcoholic. peach in flavour.
recommended. darn nice.
HAHA. THAT'S ABT IT I TINK.
2006 gav mi a new environment, seeing new faces...meeting pple wiv diff personalities...cuming from diff schs to form cliques...and of course...nt forgetting the old ones....
lingting, 8 yrs wasnt ez. u're irreplacable in my heart.
mok, 5 yrs. oh well. we r lyk bickering 4eva isnt it? haha. HONGKONG 2008! x)
agnes, 10 yrs. super loyal even though evytme ask mi if u hav grown fatter =.=
haha. as 4 the rest........mel, ap, yl, elaine, sx, feli, xy, fiona, wd, 3sa, ali, joanne, june, th...and many more....u guys rawk! =Pp
kors....lio, rubayn, alan... ok. thanks 4 helpin out whenever i'm in need....esp lionel. u're the best.
tjc.
DaClique
qi,leck,fen.
it's nt ez cuming dis far. thanks 4 tolerating mi whenever i'm keeping quiet and nt toking. cos ur fren here has a weird personality. haha. no lar. it jus tt i'm still searching 4 sth precious tt's holding mi back.
sixuan. da jie da. evything on 1. and always distracting mi when i'm tinkin of rubbish. haha. nice.
verena. aiyo. woah. wad shd i sae? seeming quiet? actualli v noisy? online crapper. she's sweet. sumtmes touched by wad she has done 4 mi too. tks!
di hui. big bro lar. told mi a big secret! wahaha. shh! dis fellow. can tok on the phone 4 super long 1. then always v loud. ear pain u noe.
waikit. erm. suan pple 1. m i so suanable? lol. ok. out-going lar. and his classic saying in chinese...从这里进来，就要从这里出去。
xin an. sum fond memories tt i wun 4get.
seb. the taxi guy. cheong cab to pei mi. wad can i sae?
hahah. 2406. frankly speaking, i didnt hav a gd impression when i first got into 24...it was so diff from tk....having 16 girls and 8 guys...whereas back then in tk..it was 16 girls and 24 guys...haha. tts nt my point...cos i thot tt it was a super cheena class......and my chi is limited....haha. i was wondering if we cld get along well or nt initially...haha. it isn't too bad aft all...(:
and i hope tt in 2007, we will really bond well! pls support class outing okay? =D
Mjc.
speaking of mjc...i saw ivan a few daes ago. haha. still tt cartoon face. u're the best ogl lar. haha. hope tt u hav done well 4 ur a levels!
evadne and jenny. woah. wonderful.
aiya. i'm tired. nx tme then continue. got too many 2 post le! hahah.
HAPPY NEW YR!!!!!!!!!
deardiary.
11:43 PM
